another day to live...*sigh*...

missing him....whish he cud noe this but i rather stay mum about it...

today my religious class graduation...so gonna dress up abit...hope i pass..

i cant believe he actually go back to his word..i tot he cherish wad we have,our friendship...gosh! i tot i cud trust him...look wad hav e u done?...wad's the talking abt friendship for damn it...i upset,truely disapointed... but juz continue the journey of life...without my dear friend...hope hiz doing ok...nva once i hate u juz disappointed...



THE CUT



Slip the tape into the player

Press the button

The sounds begin

Raise the blade

Turn it in the light

Feel the edge

Sharp

Good

Raise your arm

Look for a good place to start

There on the back

Press the point into your flesh

The blade slips in easily

Don't go to deep

Move the blade to the music

Feel the pain

The burning sensation

Blood wells

Taste it

Bitter

Metallic

Beautiful

Continue cutting

Just breaking the skin

Let your emotions guide your hand

ThereIt is done

Look at the pattern

Store itClose your eyes

Feel all the nerves

Focus on the pain

The sweet pain

Listen to the music

Blood driesMusic ends

Fold the knife

Place it back in your pocket

Throw on your jacket to hide your art

Go out and face the cold world


[smiling yet so hurt

dun believe in love but searching for onr

laughing yet crying so much inside

cheers people up yet need to be cheer on to live

listening yet yearn to be heard]