*yawnzz* i just woke up....the bleed have gone...but the headache have been come n go ...i felt tired easily...when i sleep i can barely wake up... im not like this last time dun wats wrong lah...(suddenly the giddy spells came)i never the 'kaki tido' type i can hardly get to sleep at night..but now i sleep most of the afternoons when i get back from school...baby was oso shock coz im not like dat...

yesturday:
im getting pissy...the thing abt me is im not afraid of being poor or poverty...as long as ur hard working i can live with u...and i am SO lucky i have boyfie..coz he was damn hardworking..but to the extent of sacifice my time wirth him during the weekends? sheeh.it was like pushing my mental state to the edge of the cliff coz i miss him like crazy and was looking forward for our date.tym and tym again ive been remainding him that he only have tym to meet me only during the weekend...but his farking bos have to make him work on both weekend..chibai sial...as if my boyfie have no life... so he got pissed off to when he called me around 2plus to tell me that sun he also have to work...i have to keep my sadness aside and 'pujok' boyfie that its ok i shall met him on the next weekday...

then ard 5plus he called and say 'im otw to ur place in taxi...we're going takashimayah'
kelam kabot giler babi...i change and dressed up...sui sui he called again and say the taxi already arrived...get in taxi....(eww baby smelly2 ...hahaha) can see he was so tired...so i didt disturb him(ye ke...hehehe)...i hug him(busok pon busok lah..hahaha)kiss him and let him rest tru the journey....reach the place,follow boyfie shopping..he bought some shirts and then we go makan... as usual we eat his fav place,seoul garden..i eat at seoul garden more often then i eat at mcD nowadays i tell ya...then wanted to watch movie but seats were all taken up...try to get the movie chamber so we can get tym alone but its was filled up too...chibai..was so pissed of...so boyfie drag me into the taxi and when to lot one....but the damn cinema at lot 1 was packed too...atlast we took the taxi to bp plaza and we bought a few things(he even wanted to buy lingerie for me -.-'' silly boyfie) then we chill at my house staircase for a few mins and then we when we go separate ways...
'he said i was dirfting away,he said i changed,he said he wasnt sure where is his place in my life, he said i dun care about him....but he shud really know that he matter to me more than anything...his the guy that i ever love till i cud overcome the tot of LutHafiz...his the guy that im prepared to go down the aisle with anytime soon...his the guy that i cud see myself settle down in our happy home 10 years down the road with our 'jr zaini and jr tiara'...his the guy that i wanna grow old and go tru quiet retirement with...his the guy who free me sexually mentally physically emotinally...his the guys who can make my friends and lil sis envy of me(coz im a very happy relationship)......and god, he shud really know.'

today: i want to apologise profusely to Siti Nur Ain...for not reply ur msg last night and tis morning and even Buih u abt the teambuilding challenge @ macperson secondary...i tak boleh bagon sorry...wasnt my intention..i noe u wanted to go badly and get the 'prize',trip to shanghai ..i knew i blew it im sorry :(
today sit at home finish up my tutorial for wireless comm net and do some revision for comp system(besok test).. get ready for school...makne nye: iron my uniform...and..errm...ouh ya pack bag...so ya...boyfie give money for school coz he scared i wont eat at school(alahaiz sweet nye)... later at night wanna watch boys over flowers at channel u...it will be my 3rd time watching a tv serise that have the same story line...hahaha but i loike the story line and the guys in the story...SUPERcute.aww~ korean guys. and yay! wed skip skool..so long suckerssssssssss....muhahaha! (ok aku evil.) im out with my fav guys. =))


im missing:

Nur Qurratu Aynn & Dean James Borries.
i still remember when i got tru that really hard heartbreak over lut...u guys were there listen to my pathetic sob(meraung siakz)..that tym it was at tamp starbucks when i find out from his friendster that he is already with his current gf. i wanted to leave and i ask u guys to leave me alone but u guys stay by my side...i remeber exctly wat Dj said 'u really tot we gonna leave u right...no we wont..' ... it really made me feel better. i rember i go tru deep shits with aynn like caught smoking in the toilet and getting upset over several things ...she like a lil sis that need protection...untill lately cirumstances make us grew apart...it felt bad..really bad...i still remeber aynn that we promise 'mummy' @ jammiyah that we will never let the friendship break. she hug us and wanted ur to be close friends forever.