school has re-opens...im confirmed tat im doing wireless tech. too bad for me and syirah coz we are the malay student who have to be separated from the rest of the malay student from my previous class ... when i first open the auditorium door i look my potential classmate...my mind goes 'oh nOoO...the faces kills my cicak girl spirit...fuck loads of aliens and nerds...i dun belong here...bring me a spaceship sent me back to earth...ARRRGHHH!' they are the 3 pointers n 4 pointers and the type who will go home and study kind...i and syirah dun fit in sey.. and did i mention the overview of our lessons is so fucking boring...theory..theory and more theory..which means all depend on our memorisation for exam...which i suck at big tym..

but later on...i get to noe few of my lecturers..they r not bad..like my CA and wireless comm network teacher is not bad...quiet nice...my Project Management teacher is strick but his has a sense of humour...S&W i dunno yet coz i didt go ...asusual. i gotta decide wat to do for Final Year Project..which seems to be farking difficult....and im leader for PM (aynn helppp!) i hate tis...get me outta tis shit...

btw,i sign up for 'My First Break'...its abt a eductional trip to Shanghai...BUT i have low chances of being able to go...1stly,im over 19yrs old...2ndly,im asthmatic...thirdly,my grades drop...4thly,instinct tell me....alah...i wanna go....pray for me to get my application tru k guys...

btw,ive made a gud friend in my new class...named Siti Nur Ain...she always layan my cicakgirl mood...laugh along...and she have R 'rosak' tat makes her special n cute when she talk..hehe.

she works partime at the airport...she easy to talk to...we hit off nicely during our second day...

and now she my smoke machine controller...like Aynn say ' kau bo,aku gooO...' lolz and there's one chinese guy in our class i find him quite gud looking...but its nutting just compliment for a person..no feelings involve..sheeh.i dun even know him.yet.im giving myself time to fit in im not an adapter i dun blend in just like dat n i still feel im in sumone else's class...

i felt neglected .again.his busy so am i.but weekends working? its suppose to be our time together right?..haiz...i want tat quality time with him...but time constraint is a test for our relationship..but im content...his working hard for us...and i dun wanna ruin wat is already been build for us.both r chasing paper dreams....we need to sport each other...tahan jer lah tiaraa....

wat else eh?

ouh yar...my c-box got prob isit?

i dunno lah...

later2 can check...

hahaha tak kuase..

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im stressing on how am i gonna suvive with zero dollar in my acct..

wat am i gonna eat next week at skul (rumah klu dekat takpe)

how am i gonna buy books..

i need new shoes and bag for school..

i need to buy contact leanse solution and casing..

and other stuff tat i needed urgently..

i cannot ask from my parents and i cant depend on bf..its just not right.

financial issues r killing me.

i havent been eating well at home...

its seems tat everything is gets expensive

sometime we eat the same thing for a week but im greatfull for there is food on the table

but sometime i just kill my mood to eat...

coz to me skipping meals=no thinking abt financial issues

i wanna help mom...how the fuck am i gonna help her??

just now im out having dinner with bf....we ate at a very posh restaurant(his company's bayar)

we ordered a sandwhich and a wrap plus a mushroom deep fried in breadcrumps...with 2drinks...it coz abt $30....the food was in big proportion...baby finish his food feeling nuttin..coz his hungry.....but when i put the my food in my mouthi feel the urge to vomit..the food SUCKs!

we paid for $30 for 2 sucky food.i was mad ..felt like i have been cheated or sumthing..i didt finish my food....the wrap's chicken was half cook..and i can taste the uncook meat....omg...

i finish my glass of coke....swear not to touch the food... the 3/4 wrap was left untouched...

i am not full and the food ruin my appeatite...arghh! frust sia....then baby say he wants to critic abt the bloody food in his blog...hehehehe..i wanna see wat he gotta say...the ice coffee taste like shit i swear...beware of restaurant which is not full on weekend...its just means SUCKY FOOD!

btw the place at bugis....after the food horror we walk ard and chill..then baby buy me gelatto...yummy..its been ages since i have some....i have my fav dark choco...and baby bought his milk tea...then he sent me home in taxi...we did not have time to sit and talk...i cried before i get out of the taxi coz i miss him and time have just became an enemy to us.

but tommorrow is our date ..yay! finally time to sit and chat. yay!