wassup all... how ya' doing?..damn life have been sucky..one after another problem crop up...

if im riding a roller coaster i probably at my lowest point...

fIRSTLY:The Exposure

'BANG!BANG!' is a liar.....why lie just to go back to ur ex..u can tok abt it wid me...i hate u for dat.... im not angry at u just a disappointed wid u...ARU SINCERE BEING MY FRIEND AT FIRST PLACE?...damn! u made me cry for nights...n nights when i noe ur not even worth it... wat ever i wish u happy always..thanksz for breaking my trust in guys..u seem to round off a though dat all guys have bloody same attitude... now i'll have hard time trusting guy all thanksz to u!

fie thanksz for helping me find out dat big fat liar i own u one favour...if u didt help me i still in his big lie...

SECONDLY:Mr.Dimple performance @ simei ite

my best buddy lut perform his piece at Exploration...art under the stars... good performance i must say he looking dashing dat nite wid his white shirt n black pants... *confirm bace kembang tau! hahaha* his nervous but didt show it...but during da performance he move ard his legs.. *part nie aku kekek siot* hahahahaha.... cover nervousness....at one point of time the guitar slip his pants..HAHAHA too much starch on da pantsz LOLz... dee n me met his mom n salam...wakaka now i noe where lut got his sense of humor...yes!from his mom! wakakakaka..

and Hafiz dat perform the piano piece is so cute and the music he played will make ang girl heart melt..hahaha i want his number laaa....plzzz...wakak

THIRDLY:Friendship Crisis

haiz...where did i go wrong?...answer me plz... when i cry infront of u..dun u even feel u wanna say anything to me... how come from a sister who u can tok to i've become some one u dun even wanna look at... after all this time do this friendship dun matter u anymore..u can ignore me but u shud remember my family,they are close to u too.... i noe i've gone wrong some where...but dun keep mum abt it.... u always say if something goes wrong u shud sit n confess...what happen to all dat?dun keep pointing at other pple and say 'she never say wats in her heart'.....now tell me when thing come this far 'have u tell US wats in ur heart?'

if da lunch even that i organize (at first it was organize by u n me)have create so much problem then im sori i regret having dat lunch..if i could turn back time i would want the event to happen coz i cerish our friendship....

realise this when we are not even toking take a look ard u...is dere even one person ("friend")helping u to sort thingsz out..or is it u the one who been avoiding... some pple say ur alright but u dun even wanna tok abt it...i noe u when ur alrite..u tok thingsz out...u even ignore me...

if u think im putting some "pple first" before u..then ur wrong my sis....i did think dat ur having prob wid ur mom and u have to attend ur festive visits...dats why when i msg 'up to u..' i dun mean it in a rough way..... if u feel i dun understand u then... i have nothing to say..

if u think wat i type here is wrong..then u come face me n tell me where do i go wrong...seriously we are already 18 (come soon for me) settle like a 18-yr-old....dun be childish n play this game of cat n mouse....

FoRTH:Changes....Good changes

lately i try to change certain thingsz in my life...for more obvious ones .... im pulling out my muqqadam n start reading them...i start to pray...i hope this pratice will last....i want to change...coz recently so many thingsz happen,the offer to work at clubs and the restless feeling esp. at night...i feel better if i read some surah...for tudung..well..not yet i dun want to rush things when im not ready...

i learn to love myself more..haha..not being selfish...just respecting myself more....

ahhh...i feel better letting it our...Dee SYG...hahaha hope u have some patience wid happening ard u dun wash ur hand of things so easily k...coz i nid u in time like tis....and yesh!to "Dat Guy" yesh i love him endlessly... =) remain mistery!hehe

take care all.....spread the love muacksz!

i dont want to own or have realtionship coz im scared of losing.....