firstly,the people who tagged me,like dee,fie,syirah n bebelle. sorry tak reply the tag.

i got lots to blog...but i dun want my blog entry to be a hate blog.

so i'll just leave it with saying:

people change and we can do nutting abt it....people in the person's circle mite not realise it...but people outside it see it like very obvious.

what happen if u read someone bitching abt u at facebook comment ages ago. but during dat time we dunno each other but now we do.

if u find me happens to behave like minahrep,go on tell me in the face. :)

belle is a friend that i found bless to have. *hearts belle*

i appreciate the old friends now that i see a bigger picture.

im STEALLING for wat i deserve. (not talking ant crime act here)

technology is fantastic u can see the past n future and help u too compare and cross reference to resource for personal use.

wat to buy lots of things.not for self...but there's alot of dec babies -.-"

moving on..

sara have already lose her focus. skipping school. lepak. neglect alot of things....

mcm gini nak gi poly pe sara?? sial lah can for get it arh.

i need some one to scold me to wake me up. i lost my motivation.

i dunno where to find it coz i firstly dunno where it came from when i lose it.

1more month! and its our anniversary baby! whoOoHoOo! :)

almost one year gone.... still very much in loove with him....and keep falling deeper

since the first time we kissing i can feel feel the poison sets in...

im moving out from the scene....im settling into a more quietter pack.

dimelo!

The Bus Ride to School.

my mp3 is not working after reviving from the fall and into the pail act.
so when im on my way to school i'll just stare at black spaces.really.
then i just decided not to...
today bus ride was entertaining...
the bus driver look like Emran(BoyMetal)...hahaha.... i did miss that guy seyy...
then the bus drive pass a sign that say the ERP will stop at 9am.
the right infront of the ERP road shoulder was a group of motorist and a long lorry...
try to escape from paying ERP obviously and trying to wait till 9 am.
but they didt realise that all along there's TP behind the bus i took.
when they realise,the motorist just split up quickly so that the Tp cant catch them ..
me and the bus driver was laughing at them....hahaha :) i wonder wat happen to that lorry lolz.

nowadays,
i will just do things my way...
the very least in the future i can stand and say
"those actions were done by me and only me and i can be fully responsible of my own actions"
i need motivation,and it helps that his(baby) just few blockz away. hehe.

i realise a mistake...i shud have cherish "Time".
cause when we take it for granted..it moves away faster then it shud.
and then i realise,i grew up too fast.
thinking abt after graduation,careers ,further studies..etc..etc..
and i still tot thats what Grown Ups do....


next month birthday aku seyyyyyyy!

while the number 20 looks appealing..the responsible that come with it is not.

oh wells.to date,i found 4 people who came into tis world with the same date as me...

im so special.NOT.

ok.im having a crush on La Roux. Can i be a Bi then i have baby and (he)r. haha so hot seyyy...

i want her album *hint hint* hehe...u guys go listen to her song ok...but some songs she sounds very whiny.lolz

i wud recommand Bulletproof,in for the kill,im not ur toy and quicksand. niceeee~

oh wellss~ nowadays im a very happy girl! hehes...coz i can go home with zai...coz he work at expo with wan...so i meet the Chubby Boys almost everyday to go home togather2....skula depan expo je kan kan kan.... my mood became better by the day...hahaha everyday met matair pe.... :)

for now im quite content with everthing just that i need to settle down on my studies...*shake heads* i keep skipping classes becoz of work and sometimes,stupid teachers.shall not elaborate n spoil the mood.

Before&After

aniways,that day Blacklist having their Halloween. came down to meet them. have to beg lil sis to follow me out so i have reason to get out of the house.the response were increadible! good job on the costume and stuff. *thumbs up* my fav mask shud be ramesh's. scary! hehes and of coz,the slipknot twins..hahaha....u gys can replace slipknot if they r too tired to perform for any concert lolz.

im right now is sitting beside AinKering who is sleeping and we r skipping class...dun blame me ok...the stupid teacher say that if i want to do my 15page report i can go home and do....i dun have a comp so i do at Cafe3 lolz....using Ain's lappy....gi mati ngn class,musibot.nagging at my ear.

baby i want the shoe above can? pls pls pls. $100 plus je *wink2*

u know i look good in it..hahahahha :p

gtg.

i miss quite a few people in my life.

and i cant meet 'em.

i becoming more bitchy.

but i realise i can be extremly nice to everyone.

not.

i got a few who i wud like to thank (lol feeling2 oscar)..

my BeBelle Darling...
always been there since the day my love life n emotion have been in the mess...
always msging words of encouragement n giving very good advise...i heart u babe! :) bebelle spent alot of time accompanying me in her msg almost everyday and she help me go tru this...

Syirah,She-Rockz..
for always listening me whining,accompany me in school (sit at forum with me and skip class),even when i look like ive been hit by a truck u still laugh along with my cicakgirl moments....
always understand wat i have to say without elaborate explaination... and motivate me and ask me to hold on... she-rockz says 'sara ur love have no bounderies..' oh yeah...

Farq,Fie-Male..
for come to me right after work the min i told her abt my sticky situation....
for buying me food,lotsa it to make me feel better...*hugs* syg kau! even if the day she came i dun talk alot,she just sit dere accompany me lolz...

Ain,NoteBook (hehe) n Dee..;
for being dere....ain always meeting me in the morning for sch...one time look at me crying at mac coz my mind when haywire...hehe dee for msg me and finding out how im doing...

to all the guy friends..
who always trying to make me understand in the point of view of a guy so i know wat Zai's going tru too...

sometime i feel that me and zai alone is not much of a problem...but when people who giving negetive vibe to either of us is causing alot of confusion....if u dun have construtive advise or motivation or suggestion then just keep ur trap shut...as if now the emotional level is not unstable enuf i keep having nonsense from "everywhere"...damn it...leave us alone....im so glad i have few people who actually be by our side for the right reasons...

i am gonna asnwer the bonus qn that wud be weighing on ya peepz mind:

if i wud to choose parents or zai?

i chooso my parents....firstly,parents especially mom they r forgiving people if u dun give up trying they wont give up on u...u say sorry they are more happy to accpet it....if not now..maybe eventually slowly they wud.right bebelle? i love zai but to be nikah i need my father coz he still alive and i cant suke2 hati look for other wali ...and we need our parent's restu...worst2 if i cant be with zai i might as well be alone...

dee say tis,tis morning: 'kite merancang tuhan menentukan...klu dah jodo 10 tahun tunggu pon kte patahbalik n still get married' cudt agree with u more,girl...

i dunno abt the rest of u...but i love BOTH of them,my parents n zai...this qn is very unfair to me do u understand me..it sandwhich me between the two..i can never choose to tell y'all the truth....haiz....

8 years is a long time and yes,anythig cud happen.... who says im confident that everything will stay the same....there will be changes good and bad... thats why as friend u shud doa kan and ur not the religious type just wish we wud be happy now and in the future...


ps: i love u baby,sorry if i hurt u..

i miss u like crazy sia....urrgh...!

grow up reading fairy tale

and went to school to learn literature

like romeo&juliet...

watch movies abt a forbidden love......

and always feel that

couples in that stories were great....

then i was hit with reality

when these story become my story....

its painful to actually live everyday

know that dunno when i can meet my baby,

the love of my life...

:'(

life have to go on..without you physically beside me...but im always in ur heart... there so many 'if'...theres so many worries and we,ourselves are not sure of the future....but im telling u this, i love u very much... it take more than just separating us phsically to break us up.... i'll wait no matter how long it takes....yes,its true that 8 years is a long time and anything cud happen...leave that to god's hands...we'll just try our best to hold on to our love okay b? actually obstacles suppose to make us stronger...and i believe we can make it tru :)

oh. and its NOT stupid to take 'that kinda pic'... and im so not gonna take down 'that kinda pic' in my blogskin too.

stupid or not...when things happen like this then only 'People' make such comment eh... next time want to make such remark make it when something like tis happen didt happen yet.

good day everyone.

school gonna be over in few months.

rejoice or confusion?

Happy Fasting!

fasting have been great so far..just that i cn either be very early or very late to school.

the reason is after Sahur i either sleep back and wake up very late or straight away after eating i get myslef ready for school.

haha standard.This Year's baju Raya is orange in color,tube dress inside and then outside is like coat but kebaya style and i can only pick it up from my tailor 2-3days before Hari Raya. the consequence of sending the Kain late and the Aunties already have tones of Baju to do.

fasting brings alot of test from god. usually when i ask my guy friends wat make them not fasting and suprisingly,its was Nafsu(desire)...and not nafsu makan,ok.nafsu of DIY.hahaha. their morning wood. wth. hashaha. well its not their fault actually. women got 7 Nasfu and guys only got 1Nafsu and goodness it hard to control.

for me i had the trouble of not swearing. u noe like when someone tease u i had the habit of saying......a vugarity. *shall not maki during puase*

and whole lot of Dugaan.like for me,baby and i did not meet for 2week already becoz of fasting then we try to respect the month of Ramadhan and refrain from Batal our puase when we meet *giggles* then there's this emotional roller coaster (me and syirah noes c'',)

to me fasting month is not complete without:

-sipot sedot with kuah lemak

-dengdeng

-going to bazar ramadhan,especially at geylang.(i dun care its minah'ish to go there or not..abih makcik2 pon minah pe?lolz)

-bubur masjid

-break-fast with all of ya friend.fuhhhh meriah gilerr!

speaking of which,NYETIANZ buke same2 tis wed alrite! yay!

and oh.have u heard that they are considering to open the bazar at geylang at 10pm only becoz lesser people go mosque becoz they wanna go baazar.hahaha. sound so wrong to me.

if the baazar open at 10pm then people like me cannot go coz got curfew,very inconsiderate.lol

that also means lesser income for the people who have a stall its already bad enuf economy like shit.see,inconsiderate.

we can do so many things to prevent people from doing certain things but in the end its their body,legs and whether or not they really wanna go pray at mosque and we somehow cnnot force but just Tegor.

baby and the guys got a job.

:)

happy for them.

gaji masok blanje ek.

lolz

but these few days baby is not feeling too good.

poor thing

and im not making things any better for him.

tsk.tsk.tiara..tiara...*shake heads*

i got break-fast to plan so take care people.

eat well and hydrate urself.

ps:

wholemeal bread and cracker plus a glass of milo

can make u tahan the hunger a lil bit longer during the day

Bebelle and ZanZan,tis song is for u guys

my laptop is fucked.

i cant update often.

stooOoOoOpid LapPpyYyYy!

IM WAITING FOR AIN kering TO SAVE ME.

heh.

i'll shall update.soon people.

selamat menyambot ramadhan ek korg...

jom buke same2 soon ok!

first up,

abangg lobang break-fast.

i love u bby... hopefully everything's will back like we us to.