im thankful i got to noe my dear boyfriend's bestfriend....when in doubt there's something that are too sensitive to ask my bf...can ask him....and certain things tat i shud know abt my bf caan get to know tru him.....when everything is clearer i begin to treasure my bf more then anything in the world...yay! hahaha!


i had to do my FiNal Yr ProJect...then recently i find people who can help me...so i get to know tis guy from a engineering company....i tot he mite help coz he handle all the company's tender and pitch and everythings else ...so i ask weather he can give suggestion since work in the engineering sector for a long tym...so he help to suggest alot of things...in meanwhile i felt like he trying to get to know me..i told him tat im attach...gues wat?! he actually ask me if he can be my SUGERDADDY because he find me notty and 'manja'...i was like shock....now do i look cheap? wat the hell...i was so pissed of...lucky i didt meet him..not even once...hell! i know his filthy rich but wth his 40 with a family of 2 teenage kid....

i dun need him to help me....i dun need a sugerdaddy...bloody arse....my bf and his bestfriend help me out now...and im doing whole different thing from that asshole have suggested....things will work out well..confident!

tis fri im going out with ishaq to explore ice cream..eventhough my bf knows that i and ishaq is like sibilings(his 25) but he vice change everytime i say i wanna go out with my bestfriend,the guys.aniway, a promise is a promise ...i have own ishaq ice cream for a long tyme noww...


btw,today i skip skul...baby call at 7 i pick up his call and went back to sleep....i felt tired...cudt get up...and i miss baby so much....now it seems that its not enuf to met him once a week...but wat to doo..his working and im just busy with skul...baby is sick since last night..lets hope he recover quickly...


take care people

baby i love u alot.
going to 4 months now.
mcm cepat sey rase mcm baru semmlm aku kenal dier haha

quick updates:

fri
had class in the morning ausual...wireless comm net.
skipped project class coz i and syirah dun have material.
so go ain's hs.
eat.talk,finally get to know certain things abt each other,my new found friend.
we roll on the bed.got bored.
go buy "bob dog" then lepak,ain me and mai, with redbull and we're flying.
without realizing we are already back at skul.
i and ain dun even concious we are going to skul.
that is how gone we are.
we layan each other stupidity,hahaha.
shanghai briefing
there's many obstacle to overcome for the trip.
i try to fullfill it.

sat
out with baby.
go eat at seoul garden.
buy a falsie eyelashes.
buy watch.
topup my hp.
go sheesha with my fav gentlemans
jason,nasri and of coz,baby.
we talk alot of things from business to live to love
i like to see them talking.
i like the way they think.
i love lepak with my bf's bestfriend.
baby buy food for my family,kfc.
back. whole day is sponsored by baby.
things are blanja by baby.
im so lucky.
oh.yesturday baby bought sky blue contacts.



OH LIFE IS GETTING SOOOO LOVELY!
WHoOoOhOoO!

school has re-opens...im confirmed tat im doing wireless tech. too bad for me and syirah coz we are the malay student who have to be separated from the rest of the malay student from my previous class ... when i first open the auditorium door i look my potential classmate...my mind goes 'oh nOoO...the faces kills my cicak girl spirit...fuck loads of aliens and nerds...i dun belong here...bring me a spaceship sent me back to earth...ARRRGHHH!' they are the 3 pointers n 4 pointers and the type who will go home and study kind...i and syirah dun fit in sey.. and did i mention the overview of our lessons is so fucking boring...theory..theory and more theory..which means all depend on our memorisation for exam...which i suck at big tym..

but later on...i get to noe few of my lecturers..they r not bad..like my CA and wireless comm network teacher is not bad...quiet nice...my Project Management teacher is strick but his has a sense of humour...S&W i dunno yet coz i didt go ...asusual. i gotta decide wat to do for Final Year Project..which seems to be farking difficult....and im leader for PM (aynn helppp!) i hate tis...get me outta tis shit...

btw,i sign up for 'My First Break'...its abt a eductional trip to Shanghai...BUT i have low chances of being able to go...1stly,im over 19yrs old...2ndly,im asthmatic...thirdly,my grades drop...4thly,instinct tell me....alah...i wanna go....pray for me to get my application tru k guys...

btw,ive made a gud friend in my new class...named Siti Nur Ain...she always layan my cicakgirl mood...laugh along...and she have R 'rosak' tat makes her special n cute when she talk..hehe.

she works partime at the airport...she easy to talk to...we hit off nicely during our second day...

and now she my smoke machine controller...like Aynn say ' kau bo,aku gooO...' lolz and there's one chinese guy in our class i find him quite gud looking...but its nutting just compliment for a person..no feelings involve..sheeh.i dun even know him.yet.im giving myself time to fit in im not an adapter i dun blend in just like dat n i still feel im in sumone else's class...

i felt neglected .again.his busy so am i.but weekends working? its suppose to be our time together right?..haiz...i want tat quality time with him...but time constraint is a test for our relationship..but im content...his working hard for us...and i dun wanna ruin wat is already been build for us.both r chasing paper dreams....we need to sport each other...tahan jer lah tiaraa....

wat else eh?

ouh yar...my c-box got prob isit?

i dunno lah...

later2 can check...

hahaha tak kuase..

so pls comment at the link can..

thankiu...

im stressing on how am i gonna suvive with zero dollar in my acct..

wat am i gonna eat next week at skul (rumah klu dekat takpe)

how am i gonna buy books..

i need new shoes and bag for school..

i need to buy contact leanse solution and casing..

and other stuff tat i needed urgently..

i cannot ask from my parents and i cant depend on bf..its just not right.

financial issues r killing me.

i havent been eating well at home...

its seems tat everything is gets expensive

sometime we eat the same thing for a week but im greatfull for there is food on the table

but sometime i just kill my mood to eat...

coz to me skipping meals=no thinking abt financial issues

i wanna help mom...how the fuck am i gonna help her??

just now im out having dinner with bf....we ate at a very posh restaurant(his company's bayar)

we ordered a sandwhich and a wrap plus a mushroom deep fried in breadcrumps...with 2drinks...it coz abt $30....the food was in big proportion...baby finish his food feeling nuttin..coz his hungry.....but when i put the my food in my mouthi feel the urge to vomit..the food SUCKs!

we paid for $30 for 2 sucky food.i was mad ..felt like i have been cheated or sumthing..i didt finish my food....the wrap's chicken was half cook..and i can taste the uncook meat....omg...

i finish my glass of coke....swear not to touch the food... the 3/4 wrap was left untouched...

i am not full and the food ruin my appeatite...arghh! frust sia....then baby say he wants to critic abt the bloody food in his blog...hehehehe..i wanna see wat he gotta say...the ice coffee taste like shit i swear...beware of restaurant which is not full on weekend...its just means SUCKY FOOD!

btw the place at bugis....after the food horror we walk ard and chill..then baby buy me gelatto...yummy..its been ages since i have some....i have my fav dark choco...and baby bought his milk tea...then he sent me home in taxi...we did not have time to sit and talk...i cried before i get out of the taxi coz i miss him and time have just became an enemy to us.

but tommorrow is our date ..yay! finally time to sit and chat. yay!

yesturday i and baby went to Iluma shopping mall @ bugis. to check out the shops tat r not occupied coz maybe if the shop tat baby,jason and his friends gonna open is doing well they want to rent the shop there at Iluma. we seat down and talk abt the deco of the shop, i told baby:who are their rivals and wat make people wanna walk in the shops...so he noes wat shud be on display and wat design is in demand..it helps tat we ever studied entrep...hahaha yeah.i noe.boring kan kuar dating and ur talking abt work. but yar im trying to help him as much as i can. im his pillar of support tat keep him sane among the stress tat he have,juggling between the shop and his work at the shipping company.the aircon so cold sey inside the mall i saw people wearing jacket lolz...then we watch a movie..fast&furious 4...its was..errm..ok...tell u the truth BORING SIOL.the cars are not tat gud either...wth..then we seat down to have heart to heart talk...have settle wat ever in doubt...now i noe why he choose me despite the triple rejection from me...he told me the truth tat actually when he got to noe me he was still attached with his ex...but its ok..see,the whole point is to know wats going on before we are together...and i get to know khiarul was the first to support him to go on and tackle me...hehe its was funny and heart warming when we open up to each other. finally i can say that my heart is opening up to him. he is not as bad as wat i thing or wat u guys out there think..i will always know the side of suzani bin matjuni tat nobody else wud know.and have i say this already...he make me go..ohh laa laa..hahaha the time i need sumone the most he came to the rescue...he hold me in my arms and get my sanity back...talk sense into me...his not the most perfect guy in the world but for now i tink his the perfect guy to be with me.


i wanna thank allah for never fail to bring the right guy at the right time.
alhamdulilah.
if his the one for me.then make him stay by my side for ever.
amin.
=)

i took this test in facebook....
hahaha....its almost tru man!


Tiara took the What type of person are you? quiz and the result is 7. Hedonist
Hedonists are energetic, optimistic and dynamic; their appearance is full of optimism and happiness. They are spontaneous and full of fantasy, but sometimes they're impulsive and naive; they avoid pain and have opposite feelings at committing. They have a lot of persuasiveness. RELATIONSHIPS: Family and friendship is very important to you. Relationships are based on pleasure. You can be a loyal, helpful and stimulating lover, if you have experienced your own priorities. It's difficult for you to have only one lover. You also can't believe anyone would want to commit with you. FIXATION: planning VICE: unlimitedness VIRTUE: sobriety PROFESSIONS: a lot of jobs at the same time; a free, unruly profession


maybe this whole paragraph will remind me how i want it to be and what i shud improve on...
so far im trying to be a faithful gf, think positively, be more independent and i need to work out wat career i shud have...cos i just cant work in a close area like office tat require me to seat still for hours.



Bie,Buddy.
if u have the tym pls listen to 'Di antara kalian-D'Masiv'
i know its bad tat i decided to just leave u after telling how i felt
after tat short period of happiness tat u gave me..i have stop getting closer to u
im afraid...overpowering fear tat i will disappointed. i can died from it.
i dun wanna find out one day tat u decided to be with her ur whole life...what will happen to me.
i dun wanna hold on to a something tat even u are not sure of...i love u bie.buddy more then anything..i can even call u the love of my life. not even a day went by tat i didt think of u.
between us there are our patners...who love us and its not right tat we betray them. im sorry for making the first move. i shudt have done it. maybe its a mistake.but it was never a mistake to love u right from the start. the hugs tat u give me i'll shall keep in my heart forever.
u will always be my sweet chocolate,cadbury black forest.
i wont be expecting sumthing will happen in the future to bring us together lets leave to fate like u say it.im happy tat ur moving on to poly...in my eyes ur still perfect my opinion of u never change tat is why i avoiding u now...i love u coz ur faithful and ur a gud guy but if u started cheating on ur gf by going out with me the wats the whole point..i rather u stay the way u are. u can say tat we are buddy but deep in ur heart we are much more then tat.
wats deep down in ur heart stays there.i still have u as my bestfriend and i want it to stay tat way...

hurt.

is a word too strong to describe.

dissappointed.

shud be the word replacing it.

it takes a long tym to build somethin.

it takes a mistake to destroy everything.

its take a wrong move for a person to be judging.

i saw things are crumbling down..

and then i saw u drifting away.

i need to be vindicated.

time seems to be the biggest enemy.

is it my mistake when things get stale.

i never have problem in my relationship,

my other ships seems to be a wreck.

sometime i felt like a punching bag

when everything goes wrong.

i tried to be in ur place.

but u never let me tru.

tym pass me by and i lost the real me.

then slowly i realise slowly i lose u

i never pass u the blame

when every turns cold.

i guess tats how things work in life

today we laughing together

tommorrow only god noes.