hello!=)

im afraid coz life have been good to me..in fact too good..

hehe.

right...exam is just a few DAYS...omg! the last test i did was CNN(networking)and i memorise most of the stuff...but i get the paper my mind when BLANK!or the stuff tat i memorise just wasnt inside the paper....so frustrating! arrgh!so i've been having study group with aynn n dj...

*cheers* TO OUR GELA'RE GANG....let make it work...i mean our studies...target set...atleast a pass k....

im too comfortable being of him...tat i feel tat his the person tat i will have trouble letting go...wtf sara u have never been like tis... his too good to me and i dun wish to hurt mke...and reallly he have been making me happy and take care of my feeelings n me... dj:yes,im a sundal...but i dunno y rite when im out....so call "flirting" im always come back to him end of the day..u get im try to say here?

aniway,aynn: hahaha.yar lah im stupid not cherish someone like him who ahve been taking care of me...but i swear 'aku syg dia jugak' .... his have been good to me...too good infact tat im scraed tat watever evil stuff tat i did to him karma will hits back.

aniway on a happier note!

hahaha ok every tuesday we will usually lepak at Gela're coz tuesday waffle is going for half the usual price...waffle with ice cream yummy! its becoming our every tuesday thingy!hahah

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sucy:hey girlfriend! =)) kite same2 cute lah sey lolz.... got time kite lepak tiga org k...me u n aynn...

aynn: sayang ko lah babygirl.... *hugs*

dee: girl....wasnt refering to you lah sey....i msg whole lot of fwends abt the news....and ur wasnt the only one who is sarcastic...shud mit my classmate...they are more blunt... and u shud noe my past relationships not exctly happy ones...and i did break up with some of my ex becoz of him...coz i noe my heart is with him.. rite thanksz aniway for being a gud and true fwend... i noe i always have u when im down... =))



ok....so wats the effect of being heartbroken??
-loss 5kg
-dun bother abt image:no make up to skul
-dun wanna eat...
-lost interest in guys...ok not tat im being lesbian just i dun bother....

hahahaha...crazy ek....but i just dun bother...ever siunce his attach i "collide" with him like almost everyday...if his not alone..his with his gf.... =( gotta accept the thing the way it is...
enuff abt me...moving on...

babygirl...u gotta make up ur mind...u shud no wats good for you....if you think ur giving him the last chance then u shud just close one eye to wat ever he do....if u wanna confront everything he do wrong tat u find out then just break... coz u shud noe wat his like... a leapord will never change its spots.... i care for u and im always here for u...

ok exam is few weeks away....take care pple dun 4get to study k
love all...

smile coz the next person mite fall for tat smile...

so his attah...close to 1 month..i didt noe....but it obvious actually..
his going everywhere with her.
all tat waiting just wasted...
so fast he can search for replacement for his ex-gf...
n i tot he the faithful type...difficult to fall in love...duh...
im too late....and someone else steppped into his life...


i was having my break at tamp mall...
while surfing the net...
i felt lyk looking his friendster...
then i found out ,not just when his att but olso wat date n tym...
i just cried...n cried....sobbbing..
but DJ n Aynn was there try to calm me down talk some sense into me...
i appreciate it for being dere 4 me even when i say i wanna be alone..
love u guys!
i took the ciggie and when to other place to figure out my thinking
but im still so affected...
i nid tym to overcome this...

at home is the hardest...
nights are the worst
...cant sleep....n keep crying...
dun even bother to put make up to skul today
im scared to face him...coz its hurt to see him so happy wit her
selfish?
yes i am....coz i have neva waited sumone this long..
neva love someone this deep...

was sitting down...asking my mom to dry my hair..
told her he was attach...
she noe how i feel..
so mom try to make me feel betta by kissing my cheek and touch my hair..
its not spoken
but i noe she try to say to be patient...
maybe his not fated for me

urrgh!already so upset...
some pple have to add on her sarcasm
i nid a comforting words dats y i tell her
n wad did i get?
a 'u-deserve-it' tone msg
wth...

so i figure my thinking last night
while crying...
even if his not someone special..
i will be someone his comfotable to talk to...
he have been msg me thankiu msg for the prezzie
tat i gave him yesturday...
so i dun have the heart to ignore him...
sorry aynn i cant break away slowly...i've tried...
so i reply his msg...
saying in a joking way that
'wat kinda of a buddy are u...dun even tell me ur att...haha'
so he xplain its to early to tell...
so i appologise to him for cancelling fri's plan for a movie..

suprisingly he offered to see movie on mon...
hopefully im ok by mon so i can go n see him
maybe bring his girl..
haiz...wth...bare wit it...

im sick today...
a really fucking painful sore trote
ok bye
im off