JORDIN SPARKS-TATTOO

No matter what you say about love,
I keep coming back for more,
Keep my hand in the fire,
sooner or later I get what I'm asking for
no matter what you say about life,
I learn every time I bleed the truth is a
stranger soul is in danger
I gotta let my spirit be free to..
admit that I'm wrong and then change my mind
sorry but I have to move on and leave you behind

I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothing's broken
No need to worry bout everything I done
live every second like it was my last one
don't look back got a new direction
I loved you once
needed protectionyou're still a part of everything I do
you're on my heart just like a tattoo
just like a tattoo
I'll always have you
I'll always have youI'll always have you
I'm sick of playing all of these games
Its not bout taking sides
when I looked in the mirror,
it didn't deliver,
it hurt enough to think that I could stop
admit that I'm wrong and then change my mind
sorry but I got to be strong and leave you behind
I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothing's broken no need to worry bout everything I done
live every second like it was my last one
don't look back got a new direction
I love you onceneeded protection
you're still a part of everything I do
you're on my heart just like a tattoo
just like a tattoo
I'll always have you
I'll always have you
I'll always have you
if I live every moment,won't change any moment,
there's still a part of me in u
I will never regret you
still the memory of you
marks everything I do.oooh..
can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothing's broken no need to worry bout everything I done
live every second like it was my last one
don't look back got a new direction
I loved you once
needed protection
you're still a part of everything
I doyou're in my heart
just like a tattoo
just like a tattoo
I'll Always have you..


geram gaji tak masok....sot sey otak aku sepak muka agent! im suppose to shop
ok!... arghhh!

well...i just wish dat he noes i love him alot...yeah talking abt dat guy..but it seem dat as days passed i begin to lose hope in tell him so...shall i just stay wit the person i am wid now? am i happy... the question is: do i regret patch things up wit him?..haiz i dunno... so much so dat i want to love my b i cant feel his love anymore... i tot he could love me and make me love him so i can forget abt dat guy..but i dun think so.... y am i back to square one ..the same situation like last time..haiz..god pls help me...

if i could letter to god it wll sound like this:

DEAR GOD,
im sori for all the things dat ive done pls give me peace of mind...pls put my love life in order and match me up wit someone i truely love pls ave my parent from hell fire and lastly put my life in order...and pls get me a school...im hate to laze ard man!.make my family happy.. thankiu! =)

ok pple take cr gotta rush off...whee!

PARAMORE-MISERY BUSINESS

I'm in the business of misery,

Let's take it from the top.

She's got a body like an hourglass it's ticking like a clock.

It's a matter of time before we all run out,

When I thought he was mine she caught him by the mouth.

I waited eight long months,She finally set him free.

I told him I couldn't lie he was the only one for me.

Two weeks and we caught on fire,

She's got it out for me,

But I wear the biggest smile.

Whoa, I never meant to brag

But I got him where I want him now.

Whoa, it was never my intention to brag

To steal it all away from you now.

But God does it feel so good,

Cause I got him where I want him now.

And if you could then you know you would.

Cause God it just feels so,It just feels so good.

Second chances they don't ever matter, people never change.

Once a whore you're nothing more, I'm sorry, that'll never change.

And about forgiveness,

we're both supposed to have exchanged.

I'm sorry honey, but I'm passin' up, now look this way.

Well there's a million other girls who do it just like you.

Looking as innocent as possible to get to who,

They want and what they like it's easy if you do it right.

Well I refuse, I refuse, I refuse!

Whoa, I never meant to brag

But I got him where I want him now.

Whoa, it was never my intention to brag

To steal it all away from you now.

But God does it feel so good,

Cause I got him where I want him right now.

And if you could then you know you would.

Cause God it just feels so,

It just feels so good.

I watched his wildest dreams come true

Not one of them involving you

Just watch my wildest dreams come true

Not one of them involving.

Whoa, I never meant to brag,

But I got him where I want him now.

Whoa, I never meant to brag

But I got him where I want him now.

Whoa, it was never my intention to brag

To steal it all away from you now.

But God does it feel so good,

Cause I got him where I want him now.

And if you could then you know you would.

Cause God it just feels so,It just feels so good

birthday wasnt bad..it was wonderful. last wed i celebrate it wit kak netz n abg sewel fasmily pluss abg cute aka RW (it was his b'day too).... we eat at banquet n we play at time zone...niceeeeeeeee....then they gaveme cadbury thin chocolate as present thankiu! =)

well today..i juzt came back to the library after sending my b to the bustop..i met him earlier for breakfast and he gave me my b'day prezzieee =) it obviosly a doll hahaha...n suprise...suprise..*FIFA IS A TAZAMANIA LAH SIA!* hahahaha....so sweet i love it syg thankz...

next sat my family gonna celebrate it at home..cozy style..a birthday cake,bace doa selamat n picutre taking..aww.... hearts my homiess... =)

and next week maybe i gonna bring my bestiz n sis out to celebrate...*psst...let fifa decide kat mane hahaha* yeah2!...hahaha n bring them to watch movie to..*nie dua ekor nak negok golden compass..hahaha*

and on the 29 next next sat i gonnancelebrate it wit my factory peepz at sentosAAA..hahaha gonna take the 'lurch'? *is dat how it spell?* i heard they gonna sabo me..shootz! wakakaka but i'll be a great spot n let them... hahaha

just as i tot my birthday gonna a be a horrible one...it seem dat there still alot of people who remeber my bday..... thank u people luv u all..muacksz...

me and b have been fighting..it seem dat he not give me euf attention as other people or guyz when i about to talk abt it he say i keep on scolding him..its talking not quarelling for goodness sake... i learn to love him...maybe he shud really sit and fiq out how to treat me the way i want him to....he shud at least find the time to get to noe me... im learning to get to noe him better...but wat abt him??.....lut keep on saying to be patience but till how long?... how long can he stand my temper and how long can i stand his ignorance...??

i let fate decide wat's in for us...

friendships is cool now...i hearts all of them..but i miss all of u rite now....when r we gonna sit n crap anain? haha let me noe... i get my birthday wish dat i get my bestiz back...thank allah for granting my wish.... allhamdulilah..amin....

oh ya i already apply for sch..i hope dat i get wadever i apply for... insyallah.

take care people im outzzzzzzz...

happy alwaysz....

yesturday was great i spent time wid HIM...we watch alvin and the chipmunk..funny and so CUTEEEEEE! *b i nak patong iye leh?? =)* after dat go jalan2 from plaza singapura to far east and went home..going home was a nitemare...u noe i had phobia of crowds and wit the people in town going for christmas shopping going home was a great obstical...hahaha... we take 700A and the bas go round and round but manage to arrive home ard 10pm... *phew!*

now im jobless..haha...suprise...suprise...got abit of problem at work and soo.... ya i quit... wth..
im applying school this wed hopefully i get the course dat i want *pls god i nid tis badly*

He have change alot...but well....'dat guy' is not mine.... but i do love him...i cant help but WAIT

can't help but wait-trey songz*sedare chris brown*hehe

I can't help but wait Ohh I,

Can't help but wait I see you,

you with him He ain?t right but you don?t trip

You stand by while he lies then turn right around and forgive

I can?t take to see your face

With those tears runnin down your cheeks

But what can I do I gotta stay true

Because deep down

I?m still a G

And I don?t want to come between you and your man

Even though I know I treat you better than he can

Girl I can?t help but wait

Till you get that with him it don?t change

Can?t help but wait

Till you see that with me it ain?t the same

Can?t help but wait

Till you see you for what you really are

Baby girl you are a star

And I can?t help but wait

It aint frisk to just let him call the shots

You?re a queen you should be

Gettin all that someone?s got

You should be rockin the latest in purses

bracelets and watches you?re worth

Much more than that occasional

I love you I?m thinking of you

and I don?t wanna come between you and your man no

Even though I know I treat you better than he can

Girl I can?t help but wait

Till you get that with him it don?t change

Can?t help but wait

Till you see that with me it ain?t the same

Can?t help but wait

Till you see you for what you really are

Baby girl you are a star

And I can?t help but wait

Get it together

You can do better

See is believer

And I see what you need so I?m going to play my position

Let you catch what you?ve been missing I?m calling out

Girl cuz I can?t help but wait

Till you get that with him it don?t change Can?t help but wait

Till you see that with me it ain?t the same

Can?t help but wait

Till you see you for what you really are

Baby girl you are a star

And I can?t help but wait

Till you get that with him It don?t change

Can?t help but wait

Till you see that with me it ain?t the same

Can?t help but wait

Till you see you for what you really are

Baby girl you are a star

And I can?t help but wait

Can?t help but wait babe

nonono I can?t help but wait

Ohohoh Can?t help wait

No oh no oh no oh

alicia keys-no one
i just want you close
Where you can stay forever
You can be sure
That it will only get better

You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don't worry 'cuz
Everything's going to be alright
People keep talking they can say what they like
But all i know is everything's going to be alright

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

When the rain is pouring down
And my heart is hurting
You will always be around
This I know for certain

You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don't worry 'cuz

Everything's going to be alright
People keep talking they can say what they like
But all i know is everything's going to be alright

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel

I know some people search the world
To find something like what we have
I know people will try try to divide something so real
So til the end of time I'm telling you there is no one

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel for you


ps:tis song for 'dat guy'..imisshimlots..

wassup...days pass not getting happier or easier to me... tears rolling down like gunshots.... expensive tears fall tru nitez....mind n body getting weaker by the days....as for mood n temper..i just cant control...wad happen to me..i find myself changing...FOR THE WORSET... little voice screaming out for help...CAN U HEAR ME PPLE!..HELP ME!...

i dunno im getting emotional or wad lah..everything not getting betta.... since im working money have been an issue....wassup wit this pple...im working so i can be independent n here u are asking for things....HELO im not ur walking atm... not u cant ask for thingsz at all but ever since money have been in my acct all the things dat pple do for me is link to rewards....wth.... ='(

im working from mon-fri dat leaves me to weekends to chill..but pple dun understand i have my family n life to take care off on my off days... dun start accusing n getting angry at me if i dun make time for friends...even u dun say so i started to feel dat way.... weekend my family is asking me out,my friend is asking me out,guys asking me out and wat time is left for me.... spare a tot for me lah sey...

and i dun look forward for my birthday...lets skip it k....dun wake me up on sat 22 dec pls.... i dun wanna spent another day wit tears...haiz....im not upset dat my friend is nt spending time wit me on my birthday,juz in the begining of the year the amt of friends i made is quite alot..so i tot on my birthday i mite spent it wid them but....haiz...even my closest bestiz n sisters cant be there....lonely birthdays? not aS if HIS not asking me out but i wanna spent my b'day wit friend not HIM....
i still last yr b'day..how i spent it wid my saista lurps...n everytime i rmbr i cried..yes i miss her LOTZ...my birthday wish for this year is to get back all my bestis together...n make everything come back to normal...

friends...friends im miss them all esp my bestiez....so sorry i have no time for u guyz...but i promise i'll make time as soon as possible.... the least thing i want to happen is to lose u guysz...seriously....i have lost alot of things and im getting scared...

im wid him...yes! even if him not perfect his someone i can show my true self without him judging...even if his not perfect his someone who gave his shoulder to rest on.... even if his not perfect his someone who loves me alot even if i treat him badly... even his not perfect he loves me even after i left him... even if his not perfect he always manage to make me feel whole loty betta...YES! DATS WHY I LOVE HIM...dat y me n HIM is back together...




ps:still waiting for 'dat guy'....

im taking out my last entry coz i've someone angry wid it...im truely sorry it wont happen again but atleast u noe abt it...i guess my truely unpredictable attitude is eating me up...

very tired last friday i work at school of fine arts..catering there...cool! there rock bad n stuff...but the band not dat good but the effort deserve the claps...haha
the catering suppose to start at 4.30 end at 11.30 n we were given $50 for each event but we arrive at the sch at abt 7.30 n we finish clearing up n all at abt 9.45...and we still being paid for it..yup $50 for dat 2hr 15min work..WAKAKAKA WORTH IT MAN!and there alot of hot dude to wash eye...hahaha

after dat we when lepak wid my klast time cathay friends at town..certainly good to met them again...saiful tease me for being so cubby n even ask me where i work coz his shock dat i gain weight..wakakak

ok work have been tiring at factory n eating on my health coz the factory damn dusty n i have asmath...but ok i guess just the people dere suck but my bro's gf is dere so i guess it was alright..

ok im off...wanna go but some thingsz..take care people..