i miss blogging..since my computer kena virus..frustrating..haiz...
aniway...life have been depressing ...haha..
but who cares aniway..

guys!guys!...we girl shud tell them to get a life...
if u think u can control my life,think again..
first place ur not even my bf and even if u do treat me like ur girl..u shud just sleep at ur comfort zone..ur wet drean dat is...
WAKAKAKAKA..maybe i shud be nice to them for once..errrm.....NOT!
LOL...
"bang!bang!" is going of to aussie soon..but too bad he had to make me angry and now " I LEPASKAN U" do wad ever u wan..if u dun even respect me wid a smple phone call..im not sure u can respect me when u eventually "together" offically...
im getting fed up..

but i truely IN LOVE wid "DAT GUY" this particular guy which is so near yet so far..hahaha..
wad ever..as long as his happy i will be happy too.. =)
to love someone dosent mean u have to own him rite?....im just happy wid the way things are...
but i really wonder..... will he ever noe i love him? wat will be his reaction? will he try to avoid me after dat?...sometime i want him so bad dat i think i will go crazy if i ever lose him ..hahaha
crazy bam! and his not even my bf..wakakak ever nite i take a sec to pray dat god will take care of him..really take care of him coz i dun want anything to happen to him...his precious to me...

this song is for him:
hate that i love u..

As much as I love you
As much as I need you
And I cant stand you
Must everything you do make me wanna smile
Can I not like you for awhile? (No....)

[Ne-Yo:]You wont let meYou upset me girl
And then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forgive (that I was upset)
Can't remember what you did

[Rihanna:]But I hate...You know exactly what to do
So that I cant stay mad at youFor too long thats wrong

[Ne-Yo:]But I hate...You know exactly how to touch
So that I dont want to fuss.. and fight no moreSaid I despise that i adore you

[Rihanna:]And i hate how much i love you boy (yeah...)
I cant stand how much I need you (I need you...)
And I hate how much I love you boy (oooh whoa..)
But I just cant let you goAnd I hate that I love you so (oooh..)

[Ne-Yo:]You completely know the power that you have
The only one makes me laugh
[Rihanna:]Said its not fair
How you take advantage of the fact
That I..will be under reason why
And it just aint right

[Ne-Yo:]And I hate how much I love you girl
I cant stand how much I need you (yeah..)
And I hate how much I love you girl
But I just cant let you go
But I hate that I love you so
[Both:]One of these days maybe your magic wont affect me
And your kiss wont make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you'll probably always have a spell on me...

[Ne-Yo:]Yeaahhh... Oohh...

[Rihanna:]As much i love you (as much as I need you)
As much as I need you (oooh..)
As much I love you (oh..)
As much as I need you

[Rihanna:]And I hate that i love you soooo
And I hate how much i love you boy
I cant stand how much I need ya (cant stand how much I need you)
And I hate how much
I love you boyBut I just cant let you go (but I just cant let you go no..)
And I hate that I love you so
And I hate that I love you so.. soo.....

ANIWAY...my ladies hang out at my place ..we order mcdonald...take pic have a lil chat...so cool...we will do it again k girls! =)) fifa and yusrah feel asleep like a baby in my "tree house" hahaha..so cute sia...i have their pic lah sey but cannot post..damn! wqakakaka

raya have been sucky n boring ..but i got 70+ fulus....syukur..i dun expect anything..dah besar kann....haha
plan to go raye wid nyetianz..maybe set on 3rd nxt month..HOW? let me noe kiez...

k lah im at lib...so cannot write long2 haha *mcm tak cukop pjg gitu*

fie sorie ku tukar skin tanpa bilang ya...skin nie mcm style tapi confusing belom habis upgrate nie skin ko tlng yg lebih2 k...muackz syg ko lolz!

ok love all..bye!

haish long time no bloggin erhk. skool start lah tats y. been busy all tiz while by doing nutink.ahakz. crappy patty startin. life hav been like sarqez. hate it. scared of cant coping wit it. donnoe wat i'm tinking of rite now aniway. dumbass.

skool hav been a disaster to me. just gone wit the flow for the sake of studyin. hhhmmm. might as well dont bother erhk. haiyakz donnoe lah! the feeling towards dektuu hav been fading away too. seems tired of hearing upon his same story i guess. ishk. can i gav u a tight slap plz. LoL!

it seems tat u r still not sure bout how u feel. same goes for me. so treating u as others is wat i'll do. just wanna get focus on my besties. miz him lotz. hope to go jln2 raye wit him. hehe. he jempot go his open house. wheetwheet. cant wait just lookin forward to it. ahakz. i looiikke.

hope u treat me as wat u said k fren. coz i cant afford to lose u like others did. ishk. u'll always say tat u hope i treat u as my fren and i did. sincerely indeed. i mean it k fren. =) lurp and miz u always. promise tat 1 day we'll mit aitez! amin. O_o

Ok here we go... my "grafiti on the wall". Gave it a lil' touch up. Intend to take the whole room of mine but ended up, i just took my sis n my name instead. Pretty cool to me. LoL. Much more to learn coz everybody knows tis is just basic. =p

Next week is RAYA time!! Planin to go back Melaka but too bad dad let me down. Haish. Nxt time will do. Miz the momentos playing the mercun in the nite whoah! like havin a war between the neighbours. SYIOK! ekekeke... O_o not forgettin the kampong dish more delicious! YOUCH! ahakz... d ''b The boring part is i had to go back skool in raya time. No holidays for me. =( ARGH! learning is all i do... HhhmMMmM.... wat a life! Neh mind den, at least i got to meet my frenzoz!

""SLAMAT HARI RAYA PUASA"" O_o

p.s : love u all! may all be bless... amin =)

The Deal Is ON!...wakakaka nyetianz dare me something n in return i get either 5 big cadbury or a bape t shirt ..... sori,the dare seem so tempting to resist wakakak...but the deal a bit affect my mood wakakak *aleh2 aku emo schitsz* hehe..

sometime i oso dunno i can complete the dare or not...insyaallah...can!

*patch or not*hmm..i dunno if the feeling is jut plain missing him..or am i really love him..haiyak! but im happy single sia n i dun contact any of the lanang anmore....hapier person no heartache...mcm phm sia aku wakakaka

have been baking n cooking...but no one appreciate sia..budus! byk terbuang je.....donate at mawa lah next time...frust sia..duh! crappy have been mendak at home...next yr nak skullah i have enuf dok umah boredness sia...

aniway recruiting new member of nyetianz....

Maybe yusra and ah boy....still looking somemore ppl yg fun2 crazy2 sporting n kaki kekek..wakakakaka....*korg nak apply pon boleh hehe*

i love him for the longest time but he will never be mine...never have feel for someone this strong...let him not noe this feelingsz for i scared of the consequences... crazy the way i yearning him to be wid me...but at the tot thingsz will never feel the same refrain me from telling anything...keep mum abt it... but obviously he noe dat i like him lah...at lest i think so... crazy the way i can wait for a him...well see how thing goes as time pass by.... as i sit near the window i stare up in the sky i just wish upon a star the heart will change n make me forget him but as i do so tear well up for i knew it will be hard... oh god i really love him.... pls make him happy always n pls take care of him for me....pls....

tired im off now....hehehe

bam outszzzzzzzzzzz...........