HEYAAAAAAAAAA!

wow! i really enjoy myself yesturday with the Blacklisted people,there we 10 of us
...hehe...its was our group date..
its was great being able to meet the ladies....some are more shy than the other but slowly everyone start to get comfortable...part tu tandok sume terkuar! lolz firstly we meet at cathay cineleisure.....we had our lunch@LJS while waiting for jason's date...Emma...*giggles*
then we headed off to cash box family karaoke....at first the ladies were shy to sing....then after a few song...we found a hidden talent in the group...Shasha(naz's gf) aka as shshakira hahaha!....she sang like shakira...NICE! when half way tru the guy went out for a smoke the girls were having our wild time in the karaoke room..hahaha ..no guys so we let lose....haha

then we head of to haji lane to have our sheesha session....we have a hard tym trying to find a place to fit ard 15 people..(or more..idk)...so we settle ourselves at Al-tazza....its was later on that Udin's friend came ....and sooon the table talk begin....temperature rise when the IDIOT came...
can see Jason,Sufi,Ewan,Ixezan and the guy seating behinde the IDIOT is VERY VERY angry..
ixezan is shivering in anger....
end up the ladies go toilet...all scared lah...hahaha...
only a cup flew and "superman" action once...lolz other then that eveerything else is much in control...
si bodo tu cari kemarahan org....sial tol...dah uat salah tak nak mengaku...tak tau mintak maaf...perangai mcm sial tak de self respect tak tau respect diri sendiri pon....si deng ni binatang ke org sial...

anyway,the ladies is gonna have girls outing!yeah! very much looking forward to it...5 july....shopping(or window shopping) together then maybe meet up with our boyfie later in the evening...

upload pic when shasha finally online and uploads her pic
-.-''

orite..take care people..
muacksz

ps: actually emma not bad..we all like her(kan belle kan?hehe)..even if she dress like kakak2 we can get along...hahaha but someone dun layan her for group date *whistles* haha

i just got back from dinner with family and baby...

today i went shopping with bie....he bought his tshirt and the cap that he have been eyeing for...and a leather belt with a cool buckle...he bought me a sleeveless dress,pantyhose,earings and make up... =)
we meet up with the family at sinaran@teck whye and had our dinner...
u know wat? next tym if zai and mom is having conversation i no need to join hahaha
they can go on and on...
after dat baby give me money to take taxi home...

at home...mom give me advice for "future use"..

mom:kau ngn zaini dah serious ke?

(great i hate that kinda n actually)

me:"kawan rapat" *giggles*

mom: kalau mak dier tgk kau tak suke mcm mane?

me: does my forehead has a label that says 'tak laku'?

mom: kau klu kawin nnt kau menantu yg paling tua..kau tak boleh malas nnt org tak suke ni kat rumah kau.....(bla...bla...bla...)

me: kenape ibu tak suke zaini?

mom: ade aku cakap gitu? aku tgk zaini ok..... rajin keje....

(kiwak! happy giler....mcm nak nyanyi 'give the green lightttttttttttt!' haha)

so ya no hiding....he is officially know as my 'future husby' by my parents too... hahaha

oh ya..mom says....

if u ask a guy who he love most..and he answer is his mom...u shud be glad...a person who loves their mom alot is less likely to be unfaithful....(which i find out dats quite true)....

and the part that i dun tink a need to add on from mom...

and if i find out u say' kalau u syg mak u sgt u gi kawin ngn mak u' i will be the one who slap u...

alahaiz~ my dear mom...hahaha of coz i wont say dat...haiyooh...

yesturday

baby took leave...so we were out morning...had our breakfast *whistle* and then meet up with jason at bugis...had our lunch at bugic juct....wanted to eat swensen but its pack so we when n.y.d.c
u guys shud check it out i think the food is not bad...had 'chicken wrap in blanket' and 'cheese pasta with roasted chicken and grilled peppers' and to wash it down with 'wild berry float' super yummy but i didt finish it coz im full..so baby finish it...=) hehe

then i accompany the guys to shopping....mampos....shopping like gegerl i tell u... -.-''
end up Johnny Bravo aka Json pereira *lol* bought a leather jacket and a shades and baby bought one too...and baby give his old shades to me *smile wide2* then we chill at coffee bean @ Raffles Hosp....listen to their stories and disturb each other...oh ya...u guys shud try black forest from Coffee bean...its nice...then we meet zan there and we off for sheesha@ Going Om.
there is when we talk abt sat..*evil laughter* sat is gonna be so wicked! =)
on sat everyone will look like RockStars! whoOohOo! I cant wait man! let the fun begin soon! haha


tommorrow..
there will be five couple...The Blacklisted People hehe...Mr&Mrs ixezan(belle),Mr&Mrs Aidil(Ain),Mr&Mrs Zaini(aku.heh),Nas&his gf(shasha.hmm.)and Jason&his date(some random girl on tagged.lol)
10 of us...and later during sheesha@Chemistry...there will be another 8 people including the "Sungei road" aka Udin..lol that make the number to 18...kecoh...kecoh!hehe

wat important is...BELLE MESTI KENA ADE! I MISS BELLE!
*giggles* hugs belle kuat2...

if im gonna watch transformer its will be at geylang...

why?

seriously so many "transformer" at the road side especially during evening

when people dun realise they are pondan...

watch they transform themselves..to "beautiful" pros...

*gess~! lol*

im very irritated that my lap is being taken away from my bro..

so i kinda using the lappy without him knowing...

lolz

anyways,last fri i went picnic with my family except for,of coz,my bro.

at west coast park...after eating and taking pic..

my family just chill under a tree...

then ard 8pm...

dad:jom kte jalan2...

mom:kite baru sampai...tak kan makan je jalan....

dad:tak suro balik..jalan2 je

lil sis:baru kul 8...kte gi main kat playground tu arh..

ibu:tak nak lah adek...

so end up..we all lepak there..taking abt,of all things,when im suppose to get married -.-'' and the candidates that i celebraties have as their partners(yes,me and mom gossips too).....then i realise there this "ketepek!" sound....at first its was far...coz not far from where we sit there this open space...then the "ketepek!" sound getting nearer but its seems no one hear it except for me...

then the "keptepek!" sound get louder and now it gets on top of the tree we sit...

mom got shock and she hurry us to pack and leave...

mom:bulu roma ibu berdiri...we shud leave...i dun feel gud abt this

dad: cepat kemas baarang

(bukak yasin kat hp)

we are scared out of our minds

and we are walking there this scent...i dunno how to describe..its like flowery and sweet scent...

me:ibu pakai "minyak agin"?

(ya..like wtf im asking....)

mom:tak.."bende tu ikot" bau wangi ni...

i keep quiet..then i realise........................

me:ibu kak lupa lah....naak bilang...

ibu:pe bende?

me: kak tengah uzur(period).... -.-''

ibu: asal tak cakap...kan bende tu bau darah kau mcm sedap gitu...mcm mane "bende" tak ikot..

nice. at tat point of time im started to freak out...

then we cant go home...

we went plaza to make ourself calm...

then my mom called my aunt to ask wat to do..

we get more info then we ask for...

the fact that when things happen there no wind and the sound like people jumping...ketepek2!its not cik pon but its "gula2" aka pochong...

dang~! and me and mom actually make a joke before we go there that morning...

we say..

mom:kte pegi ni nnt klu ade "gula2"....kte bukak ok! (she LOL)

me: ok set! kak pegang kaki ibu bukak tali dia(luffs )

mom: ok nnt kte dpt duit...dorg kate bukak kan tali nnt kaye....

serve us right....tak tau jage mulot kan dah kena..

we got home and actually put yasin on a repeat mode on our CD player...

and i sleep earlier that u usually do...haha

mom is planing to bring us there again...

tis tymthe whole family with kak fizah(bro's gf) and husby *smile wide*

NYETZ GATHERING

the gathering is postponed to late july or early august

coz i have read some blogs,

our dear friend just started working

and some just need to settle somethings for their 1st one

so we need to wait till their next pay day

...lol.

i wont make the gathering happen even

if there's only 1 person who cannot make it ok...

get me?

thats the whole purpose of gathering..

everyone turn up...

anyone cash problem

talk to me first and dont just back out

its irritating.

tankiu...

i love u girls *smile wide2*

im looking forward to it...

ps:

its worth to dress up on that day...

suprise me with the style that u never wore before

and maybe u dun have to spent so much

*wink2*

im having something up my sleeves..(kan fie kan kan?)

hehehe...

lappy have been "confiscate" with my bro...


sheesha session yesturday was fun!
belle,ain,ixe,aydil,baby,jason,ramesh,wan,sufi,and the "ingrediant" for the day, Udin aka BODO NAK MAMPOS. lolz
its was a fun day...the day baby when head to head with a mat kental that says may baby is a gentle giant... cibai lah eh...he lost in and armwristle with baby....fucker!...he choose to be punch by baby and sufi..which baby dun really punch him that hard out of pity....but the bloody arse have to say 'kau tak tumbok full force' i felt like slapping him....and his VERY stupid...then he is being humiliated(kutok rabak2) by jason and ramesh and the rest join in AND all that he can do was smile.... lolz every sheesha session shud be like this!
and every sheesha shud be with the two gorgeous girls, ain and belle...they r very friendly girls and i like talking to them....gerek sey! =))
its just too bad that we have so many plans in mind but retricted becoz of curfew and stuff...
but hope to do the date together2...yeahh!
i really felt bad for belle having to layan tat BODO NAK MAMPOS that have BO....his so fuck'd i swear!

aniways..
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY...to those unwilling jerks who shotgun...lol.


and happy 6 month aydil and ain...padahal semlm..lolz

take cares people...
muacksz!

ps: mamybe i shud come clean with him abt this blog.haish.

sun:


excellent shisha session with husby's friends.y excellent?pasal FREE.hehe.no lah coz we have jokers in the house.lol.anyways,tankiu jason.laughter is the best medicine..kan baby? lol.he dosent read tis anyway.lol.


arrive home around 9.45pm..so sit a while at the void deck settle some things with husby.


but with limited tym things are not settle.


aniway i felt bad that husby have to go back earlier coz of my curfew and its kinda rude that when khai and noy(baby say 'annoying' is her full name.lol)came we have to go off...its like they r replacing us...


and i really hope the guys have fun during halloween and im sorry i cannot follow...i dun wanna ruin the mood by going home early...so mite as well forget it...take pic and tell me abt it ok jagong?lol.and make sure zai get kiss by the mask only... lol.





mon:


it was fucking boring. and it dosent help its the 1st day my 'red flag' waving in the air.


i was moody,pissy and i just wanna curl up in bed with my cramp that is provoking me...


i hated PMS like serious.husby always becoming the puching beg when i ever i pms-ing.


and dosent help i receive a bad news that the NYETZ GATHERING GONNA HAVE SOME CHANGES.....do u read me girls...wont lie but its pissing me off...


but i did something productive on mon...i clear up my closet..i have clothes that i dun think i will ever wear again...lol.


and i lack the basic of a wardrobe.





tues:


tues was a pleasent suprise!


husby took urgent leave to spend tym with me!


wow! i really enjoy myself today...





have u heard of ROFL?Roll On The Floor Laughing


that's wat basically happen just now..haha


zai was nagging how he wanted to shave his head,


so i told him jokingly that to shave skinhead...


the i added with a laughter... 'u nak kena hang ngn skinhead?'


hang tau as in hanger...kepale hotak its suppose to pronounce as hung


lol. then he make fun of me...rabak...


he makes jokes abt wanting to bring hanger with him when he already shave his head so he wont be hung.lol.


i was laughing none stop with zai...


then i trip on my crocs and fall...and still laughing without feeling paisey...lol.


do u know where i fall?


at the long staircase outside marina square..hahahaha


farking paisey.lolz


but that tym i dun feel that way coz i was happily laughing non stop lolz..


then i was flirting with zai at the bustop...then he didt layan...


the i make comment 'baby u ni file flirt arh!'


FILE ke FAIL? lol BoDo lol! haha




then he heard me say FIRE instead of FILE...and FRED instead of FLIRT



so zai goes like..



'fire flirt

wind flirt

earth flirt

water flirt



together we combine into captain FLIRT FRED-net!



lol.crazy...hahaha...LMAO with zai...



we arrive home decided to lepak under Fie's block...then got bored so walk around the neighbourhood...i was so hyper...i was dancing around him...lol.yes,dancing.

zai wont take up dancing with me.sagong sey!

so irritate him! haha...i was going all over the place...go ard him...take his hand do a turn...

he complaint..'baby i penat lah...' but with a smile .hehe.his classic senget smile.

iloike!=)

then the sad part came...i told him this weekend i'll be working and he have something on tis weekend too...crap! haiyah...

i told zai...the only enemy we have is time...we cannot afford time...
then zai told me....tym is the one who cannot afford us... =(

wed:
i woke up when my lovely mom knock on my door..the she like 'tgk kat sink ade ape!'
i tot i left my kotex in the toilet or wat...lolz...
then i realise there this big sting ray at the kitchen's sink..with the tail as long as my lil sis's belt..
mom say its too slimy to turn it over...so i did the job...
guess what i found?
there's the mouth and below it was and opening..

me:ibu ikan pari dia ader pepek eh? ni lobang...mcm slit gitu!

ibu:memang ade...ikan pari kan uzur(have period)...

OMFG! i just wanna....ok! not gonna say anything if not i cannot eat the fish later...

i swear mom is not lying...she even put her finger tru it and play ard...-.-'' oh gosh mom!

lol.notty2 mom...tsk tsk.haha

and then i remeber a friend told me long ago sailor who cannot go home to met the wife will sastified themself using the sting ray..EWWW! GROSS....

lol.


take care people...love u!

sometimes baby can be this 'mardy bum'
sometimes me and baby can be in the situation like the song mardy bum...
so im addicted to this song....nicely put it how i felt some times abt baby...


fri,
i met up with my sis fie-MALE...
we went to watch a gig..
THE PINHOLES!
ok i love their style...like the beetles...
it was my first tym watching the band,
and i like wat i saw and heard...
fie finish class early and i still at home watching tv
so i kinda meet her later so she have to jalan2 first alone...
then we had lun-ner...coz its like going to dinner and fie havent eat yet..
so ate mac...hahaha..the leg bring us there...actually we dunno wat to eat
then as usual camwhore...
dun have pic coz fie havent upload in fact i havent see her online since she went home
from the gig...FIE WHERE R U?
-.-'' i msg oso never reply....worried....
then we chill at esplanade rooftop
coz very hot lah dey.
up there cooler
pic taken.*mcm gi club sey gmbr*lolz
as usual fie try to show off her photograpy skills hahaha
went home...taking abt our secondary school days..
lolz our favourite Narin and "Shower of Love",
its reminds me of Eff covering her face with geography text book
to prevent from drenching in Mr.Tan wee liat's
lolz

sat
sat was very 'full'
hahaha ok lame
in the morning my gorgeous soon to be sis-in-law(kak fizah)
just came back from work
catering at a church wedding
came to my house bring 2 catering trays of BBQ chicken wings
and 1 catering tray of pasta...
super yummy i tell u!
like Fie-MALE,i oso like to eat chickens hehe
so heat up the food and let everyone settle down for luch
then when to pick up baby at BP plaza he came back from work..
then lepak under my void deck
ask my adek to pack some wings n pasta and we when to our lil picnic at the park..
but wth...5 min later it rains...
and i saw my cousin,firuz aka Bob and my bro. they was doing sumting with their
scrambler...
my soon to be sis in law(kak fizah) oso got motor license too -.-''
she's buying vespa...insya'allah
then we(kak fizah,Bob,abg and my parents)
lepak at home together....
eating Jempot2,chicken wings and pasta...
laughing AT (not with) a stand up comedian that try to hard to people laugh
FARKING lame!

sun,
the day havent pass yet..
but later im going to shisha with Sugong and Jagong.
lol.
lets not be rude to the elderly haha.
im going with my husby and ABG jason.
*whistle* yeyeh! abg blanje..yeyeh!
lol.
i just went down one notch...
hahaha
for once i felt like im not old...

there two malay weddings..
for once, its a normal one.
no bikes making so much noice to escort the bride or groom
there no assholes who thinks that their voice like heaven singing their lungs out,
the wedding decoration is not like juressic park or botanical garden
hahaha.

ard my area there's 2 weddings going on and a chinese funeral
hahaha...so there's malay song remix with the chinese TongTongCheng!
hahaha.wtf.
dah mcm techno sial.
headaches.


parents and i were having breakfast together..
there's this wedding show on tv

me:skg daah takde rewang2 eh?baru ingatkan kak kawin nak suro makcik2 kite dok potong bawang same2...kire kan mcm cute arh....

mom:nnt bukan rewang pon....nnt buat gado2 de lah..kau tak tau ke...skg kan dah de tribe2 kat family kite...kte de (insert all the penganas group)....sume tak boleh tgk satu same lain...mulot laser...

me: arh2 eh..nnt kak letak carpet...letak lable kat sume carpet tu according to the group...
suma tak gado arh...

mom:betol jugak mane yg gang same2 letak satu corner....satu carpet...

me: -.-'' leceh sey ibu....on the second tot...i want to take catering urh.....i have idiotic makciks..
except for some....

hahaha.
i love my mom!
she always layan my nonsense..
hahaha she the best!

MARDY BUM
- artic monkeys


Well now then Mardy Bum
I've seen your frown
And it's like looking down the barrel of a gun
And it goes off
And out come all these words
Oh there's a very pleasant side to you
A side I much prefer
It's one that laughs and jokes around
Remember cuddles in the kitchen
Yeah, to get things off the ground
And it was up, up and away
Oh, but it's right hard to remember
That on a day like today when you're all argumentative
And you've got the face on

Well now then Mardy Bum
Oh I'm in trouble again, aren't I
I thought as much
Cause you turned over there
Pulling that silent disappointment face
The one that I can't bear

Why can't we just laugh and joke around
Remember cuddles in the kitchen
Yeah, to get things off the ground
And it was up, up and away
Oh, but it's right hard to remember
That on a day like today when you're all argumentative
And you've got the face on

And yeah I'm sorry I was late
but I missed the train
And then the traffic was a state
And I can't be arsed to carry on in this debate
That reoccurs, oh when you say I don't care
but of course I do, yet I clearly do!

So laugh and joke around
Remember cuddles in the kitchen
Yeah, to get things off the ground
And it was up, up and away
Oh, but it's right hard to remember
That on a day like today when you're all argumentative
And you've got the face on

firstly,
i wan to celebrate..


YES!MOFO YESSSSS!!!!
AFTER 3DYS DOING A FRIEND'S BLOG...
YESSS I FINALLY FINISH DOING IT PERFECTLY...
WITH OUT THE THE STUPID BOARDER! ...
*jumps up and down*

now,im gonna link him..and u,friend...start planning wat to update...hehe


hahaha...tankiu to blog specalist,Doctor Fie for looking tru the finishing touches...
hehe...

secondly,
i bought a new dress...yay! ok its like a random feeling that i want to buy something to wear...
and thankiu very very much to Dee for accompany me within the short notice u make tym for me... *smile widely* meet her two friends...ady and bob...very strange at first coz i hate meeting new people....its just me lah...but they are very friendly...very gud..always make the conversation going... to know wat going on can read dee*chimpanz's blog at my link..tankiu...*dee..free promo for blog kau lolz*
ouh ya...and dee, i want to buy a tshirt at that shop...*lawa sial design..cibai budget low*
i love u dee hehe


thirdly,
i wanna go ska gig this weekend with FIE-male and friends....hahaha...
but i oso want to go shisha....pls...pls...pls...i wanna have both...pretty pls...
i cant have my cake and eat it too..so maybe i go fri to the gig then weekends go out with baby..
AHEMM! someone own me shisha and fried mushrooms @ going om...*LALALALALA*..hehe

fourth,
SCHOOL HOLIDAY STARTED! YAYYY!
not going skul on fri..u shud go ite simei tis week..its like ghost town..where's the matrep? where's the minahrep? where the girlish beauty therapy? where the clones of edward scissors-hand of the hairdresser student....aww....tis week school's a bore...
i have to search for new wireless device during my holiday and do a mini project on it...fuck lah...im so in the holiday mood...and i manage to persuade baby to take one day off during my holiday to keep me company...yay! he PROMISE....so better do so....*klu tak tak fair kan kan kan*

fifth,
i need to really wipe out my laziness...find a job...like really....
and i have catering either sat n sun every week....and baby have been nagging abt when im gonna start work and save money for us.....
wat HE didt know...i need to save money...coz before i really settle down..i wanna go travelling with friends,buy myself a diamond ring that i own MYSELF,give my parents money.,...bls..bls..list goes on lah ek....mainly i want to do this that i havent been doing for myseelf...


LOL session:

i was waiting for dee's msg tis afternoon...
was sitting alone when a classmate came and join me coz he dun wanna go back first...
he swith on his lappy..then we start talk abt school and wat we wanna do after tis...
then he told me abt his relationship that didt work out..so i told him abt my sweet boyfriend..
without telling the name...
the i go like

me:kau penah tgk mat n minah impression?
classmate:ouh ya...yg dier kate 'girl sini girl'..mintak no(doing the actions) ..ape kejadah...jantan uat gitu sial...kiwak mcm pondan sial....tak malu ke...
me:*smile widely* tu matair aku *(cutting him off)
classmate:serious?kau serious pe? sial....aku tak tau sial...paisey arh...

WAKAKAKAKA...HAHAHAHA...HAHAHAHA....fuck eh!malay has tis saying 'kerana santan pulot binasa kerana mulot badan binasa' hahahaha moral of the story nxt tym before u speak..think twice...u dunno who u talk abt..ntah makcik org ke mak org ku mak mertua org ke..in my kes bf org ke...hahaha but im not mad....im just find it fucking funny....hahaha...

aniways..
i still need to get a...

-new tshirt...the bugis shop...the design iloike!
-a colored jean....meaning no black white or blue...other colors
-yellow dress or top
-big shades
-black tube
-ANGKLE BOOTS *damn~! it cost $300*
-ballet flats or a simple high heel
-and and sporty shoes*not for running lah*

the weekend pass and its was a tiring one...
i am really fucking tired...

fri

i was fucking pissed off....no one msg me that Ron is not cuming to project management class earlier... i get up at 8......half way 2 school. msg ain and she told me all of them have gone home...and syirah told me she no coming school...so i ways already at bugis...im not angry at anyone really..im angry at myself...it was a wasted trip...but i dun wanna go home...so i took the train and when school anyways..met up the guys,really sweet...say to them i am being stoopid and going to school when there's no lesson...so ayus and wan told me to come down and meet at cafe 3 nice off them to accompany for awhile....switch on the lappy and just surf...trying to find people who will hang out with me...when boredome strike i called lil sis wake her up to meet her at wooldands...the guys go to their class....

met sis...then when to mac let her surf the net....then she left for class gathering ...left alone at woodloands civic centre lib....msn with dee...then dee is swit enuf to come down and see me...
accompany her buy perfume and necklace....then when smoking...back to lib do some work...abt to msn with jason abt some relationship thingy when we abt to go off already (sorry dude -.-'') so pack everything and left...dee when to her SIRS(damn! i forgot wat it stands for)
and headed home ..in the bus persuding baby to meet me later in the evening...which we did...and i just cry and cudt say anything....sori arh jason i guess i fail to be firm or garang ... damn!...

sat
today is all abt work... i have a chinese sit-down wedding event at temasek poly...and babyis out shisha'ing with the guys.
i suppose to be working from 3-10.30pm..but like always we have to do extra work..i make alot of friends
from the one i really MENYAMPAH to the ones who really nice...i met shidah kering(she is so goddam hot ok...she is model for toni&guysalon),shidah basah(shasha the slim hahaha),zie(watever lah attention seeker,my bro's gf lil sis),sha(oh! his hottt n nice ),zaki,nassir(his damn clever lah sial from ite to now,uni) and very happy to work with my fav manager(she's a handsome butch...aww~)
in this stoopid sit-down we have to cut the chicken,fish,noodle and portion to them and distribute to the people in the table....and my table are full of fuckers ok....i have to go back and forth to take coke,wine,henikens,sprite,ornge juice or xo..and they dont even say it at one go...cibai...
the end ard 12 after the motherfuckers who just had to make the groom drunk(the bride is so not gonna get any that night i swear) hold the whole group back for drinking session..keep on shouting 'CHUCK!CHUCK!CHUCK!' chibai sia...poor guy cannot drink sumore...face all red...
take taxi home with shasha,shidah and charlse home...i reach home and clean up...sleep ard 3am..

sun
i sleep at 3am and i woke up at 7am to get ready to meet baby...hahaha....only crazy chick like me who really in love will do it...hahaha ard 8 meet baby.....do wat we have to do..then eat seoul garden....chill at under fie's block and sent me home....but have to play cathing first coz actually i dun wanna go home...so he have to really drag me home...hahaha...today is all abt abt chillex with baby..coz he knows im really tired....my legs numb from all that walking last night at my work place...it hurt so bad i cant feel my butt...haha...
content that the day is spent with him finally...





randome:
i probably not the most innocent girl....i probably did the worst thing among my gfs...but everything i did i dont influence or dont force anyone to follow...we all have own lifes...and we live it the way we want it...i noe when im gonna change....i know when enuf is enuf...so i dun care the words like 'kau lagi rabak dari aku...' or 'the way u act no better then a slut...' hell...words dont really affect me in a big way...but i do take note for future changes....coz like i say i do noe when to change....
and when i put stuff in my blog like relationship prob it is not to tell people that ...' i need support to let my bf go..' its more like...'if u have the same experience tell me wat i suppose to do to make it better'....ok? get the pic?


its strange when i share problem(especially relationships) with people..they have the easiest way out,wash hands off everything....eg.'kau break sudah ngn dier since dier tak understanding...'
i dun need a farking batu api....i need a constructive advice....most of u are above 18...so pls use more then 0.25% of the brain....


still am bleeding....im farking need a doc before i freak out....
and dee,its not abt the thingy that i tell girl....=) so be happy for me...hahaha
dizzy spells came back...oh great...
i think i need to think abt my healty already...
shito...


take care people!
I LOVE U LIKE I LOVE MYSELF =))

IM A FAKE-the used

Small, simple, safe price.
Rise the wake and carry me with all of my regrets.
This is not a small cut that scabs, and dries, and flakes, and heals.
And I am not afraid to die;
I'm not afraid to bleed and fuck and fight,
I want the pain of payment.
What's left, but a section of pygmy sized cuts.
Much like a slew of a thousand unwanted fucks.
Would you be my little cut?
Would you be my thousand fucks?
And make mark leaving space for the guilt to be liquid.
To fill and spill over and under my thoughts.
My sad, sorry, selfish cry out to the cutter.
I'm cutting trying to picture your black, broken heart.
Love is not like anything,
Especially a fucking knife!

Look at me.
You can tell,
By the way I move and do my hair,
Do you think that it's me?
Or it's not me?
I don't even care.
I'm alive, i don't smell
I'm the cleanest I have ever been.

I feel big, I feel tall, I feel dry.
Dry.
Just look at me, look at me now.
I'm a fake, I'm a fake, I'm a fake, I'm a fake.
Just look at me, look at me now.
I'm a fake, I'm a fake, I'm a fake, I'm a fake.

Do I drink?
Do I date?
I've got perfect placements.
all my ink
Satisfied, in your eyes.
I'm the biggest fan I've got right now.
I made sure I looked how I wanted to look.
The people around me,
The people surround me.

I feel big, I feel tall, I feel dry.
Dry.
Just look at me, look at me now.
I'm a fake, I'm a fake, I'm a fake, I'm a fake.
Just look at me, look at me now.
I'm a fake, I'm a fake, I'm a fake, I'm a fake.

Just look at me now.
I'm a fake, I'm a fake.
Just look at me now.
I'm a fake, I'm a fake.

My stomach hurts now,
And i'll tie it off in lace.
I pray, beg for anything to hit me in the face.
And this sickness isn't me.
And I pray to fall from grace.
The last thing I see is feeling.

And I'm telling you I'm a fake,
I'm telling you I'm a fake.
I'm telling you I'm a fake.
I'm telling you I'm a fake.
I'm telling you I'm...

Just look at me, look at me now.
I'm a fake, I'm a fake, I'm a fake, I'm a fake.
Just look at me, look at me now.
I'm a fake, I'm a fake, I'm a fake, I'm a fake.

Just look at me now.
I'm a fake, I'm a fake.
Just look at me now.
I'm a fake, I'm a fake.

Fake!
Fake!
Fake!
Genuine fake!!!

*ROFL*

kiwak! muke satu2 innocent sial!~

hahahaha

and we are with one of the best teachers during our secondary school tym.

those were the fucking days...

skip night calss to go buka together at woodlands park,

play catching with our history teacher,

and hell lot of fun during art lesson.....

were were in our teen and we were so carefree....

=)

and we look better then the

sleepingslut.com people...

hahahahaha

I WANT TIS ANKLE BOOT REALLY BADLY...pretty pls~

im bleeding again.

someone pls tell me why.

shud i go doc?

his getting very unreasonable...
im suppose to help Simon to be his model for hairdressing exam...
it was merely a hair cut..
i dun even know Simon...
his like 'u letting other guy touch your hair?'
sial lah like seriously...
die fikir aku boleh turn on pe org pegang rambot aku...
cutting hair dosent equals to flirting...
sial lah i dun evn talk to Simon even before we meet...
wtf sey....im very pissed off
i call him up while waiting for Naz..
i tot i want to talk to him before he get his work done...
but he sounds like he dun wanna talk to me...
so hang up...
then he msg me 'u suppose to know why im upset..'
wtf...now,do i look like jean grey or professor x..
i cant read minds for goodness sake..
haiz...
he reach the limit 2 days ago...
when i cry like as if i freaking lost my mom...
i swear i cry so much..
he keep on stressing on a certain issue
serious arh if his like think that my guy friends arh more important,his farking wrong.
and isuess like curfew..
all tis is not in my hands pe!
i feel like letting go...
aku mcm dah nekad sial mlm tu...
i was so prepared to let him go let him find other girl
the girl who will show him that he is more imprtant then her friends
the girl that he can date and come back home late and even better next morning..
the girl he cn bring to his frinds meet ups and dun have to cut it short just to sent her home b4 her curfew...
im up to my neck..in deep frustrations
watever i do is wrong
his freaking right in everything..
the morning,my eyes just welled up..he msg
he very sorry for wat ever he say
im not the one who take to heart wat pple say but somehow im a girl
watever 'not nice' things he said i mite get affected...
guys are so typical..u make mistakes...and you really tot u deserve some sluts who treat u better or chick who is "fun-loving"
when asked to let go so u can find some wild 'anak ayam'..
then u start to get scared and begged not to be left...
i love him very much...i give up my perangai that likes to contact alot of guys in one tym, just to stay faithful to him...but each and evrytime...i just need to say something abt my guy-friends,he will get all upset...
haiz..
im tired...
i tried talking
i tried not to do things that he dun like to aviod fights
but its seems everytime I DID SOMETHING WRONG
he always finds my fault..

*cries*

ya allah,pls give me the patience to bear with him...if my fate is with him make us happier together and make the love last...i care for him..pls make us a better person.amin.

mom's birthday was a blast!

we had lots of seafood to celebrate mom's birthday @ Mr teh tarik,Jurong.

Abg and Kak Fizah(abg gf) oso come down...but they are late buy mom's prezzie..

ibu dunno that abg coming down so we order food(like suprise for ibu like dat)...crab,sipot sedot,sweet n sour fish,kailan and cereal prawn all my fav, and finish up everything...half way eating abg kol and pick up the phone infront of ibu.. 'helo...size kaki 40..ahuh....ibu?...errm'(look at ibu..luffs)tak tau but kaki ibu kecik sikit...ahuh ...tak same size'....i was shit! did ibu hear dat...put down the phone and ibu ask me...'sape tu?abg? die dtg?....ape size2 tu?' hahahah wtf i just ruin the suprise....the ibu just have the right way to make me feel guilty and tell everything... 'abg kau mane ingat ibu nye birthday'... i look at my adek..then we decide to tell her ..abg is actually buying her prezzie and headed down to the eating place..then she ok after that...but abg came and say kak fiza cried coz we eat first without her...aww~....sorry kak fizah

-.-''

but its all good... zai and me bought ibu mug that5 can be written on like secret code....cute right? hahaha