he loves me.hahaha.



when gelare gang gets bored:











so exam if over!...ITS THE HOLIDAY BABY....!



rezal trick me at msn saying today have lesson at 4 hahaha...arse!

so im making prata for 'break-fast'....yeah n rashid is coming over...
urrgh! i miss him lah sey...lately he busy with work so we c each othe less often..



on a happier note!hafiz aka the scandal msg me on the morning my C&N exam..

happier sia...but dunno lah his like 'ape dosa i? wat did i do? look,give me one more chance pls'

hahaha...i give him a hard time..atlast i say ok after he msg 'i will change time to time.i pwomise'

so he have been msg...last night he ask to call so we talk for hours...

i really enjoy talking to him...we nver lacking of sumthing to talk abt...

I had a Hip Hop & RnB morning....i mean tru out the journey to skul i heard only hip hop tunes,songs like Cookie Jar,Bounce,Bed,Elevator,Hydrolics,In the ayer,Lollipop(by 3 6 mafia),What you got(colby o donis ft akon)...whole lot of other songs....moaning..errm i mean morning wasnt so bad i guess, just at have the trouble taking 960 which i call 'bus madrasah' coz there alot of people skulling at madrasah skul taking tat bus...n got the dirty looks coz friday is basically ' short demin skirt day' haha....





so last fri DJ came to skul with his new hairdo..haha cute lah with the curly werly hair...






so its teacher's day last fri...Desmond and i when to write 'happy teacher's day'on the board for Mrs Ong(Digital principle&Application 'cher) i suppose to write it in malay... so i wrote 'Selamat Hari Guru' and for a moment Mrs Ong and i had a Debate tat 'TEACHER' in MALAY shud be 'CIKGU' or 'GURU'....she insisted tat it shud be CIKGU coz tat wat people always say n she say GURU is for wise people...eh hello! yar lah....TEACHERS ARE wise people TATS Y THEY TEACH RITE...DUH!alamak...contradicting herself sia.... end of the day i told her...teacher can be both cikgu n guru,2 words with the same meaning...just like the word birthday in malay we can call it 'hari jadi'(jadi ape??haha) or 'hari lahir'...















if u people wanna noe....i LOVE keeping soft toy...hahaha...i got quite a bit of collection...all with names...haha ok i noe it sounds strange but i gave a name for each of the soft toy i collect...i recently got them out of the store room to display it in my bedroom...i miss my teddybears...aww..hehe...so u noe wat to get me on my birthday...*giggles*

guess wat i found in my store room?? a whole lot of memory from my primary school...got tis note book given by my pri school teacher Ms Nora,its says wish 'u success in the future'....im trying so hard to remeber how she look like but to no avail...then there's a self made 'friendship certificate' by my pri skul bestfriend last time...her name is Raihana...i still remember how she become my listening ear when im down...go crazy when we got nutting betta to do...n be my protective shield when people tease me coz im plus-size...she always come to the rescue..she's like my big sister... the one day problem came...everyone change i guess...there's five of us who is very close:Raihana,Zara,Fazlina,Putri Endang & me in the class....then there's start to have 'tribes' between five of us...zara,endang and fazlina in 'one tribe' and rihana n me 'the other tribe'....i dunno wats wrong suddenly all broke up...someone will talk behinde someone's else back...(rezal:i told u girls friendship r much more complicated n they tent to be hypocrite)...and someone will think they are more 'clever' and they are never wrong more better in terms of behaviour tat they think they shudt mix with the others *roll eyes* duh!... im now thinking how childish during pri sch friendships but then wat happen in the past is repeating itself...now... so wat is it telling me??

the pain of a ruined friendship coz Raihana 2 write a poem:
this live is full of sorrowonce you have it,it just wont leave you
even your friends cant understand you
not even your bestfriend
All the people around you thought
it is a jokebut to you it is something tat hurts alot
how,how could i leave my sorrow behindby killing myself?am i being cruel to myself?or running away from homeor tell your friends
will they listen or just ignore you
they thought you are proud just because you pass all your subject
i did not want to see my friend failing cause i noe everyone is not born to be stupid
it is the interest tat you must have tat's all.
but how hard i try to tell them they would just ignore me
can somebody help to change their life
pls bring back the old(fazlina zara endang n sara)i used to noe why must they change?if im the onewho is changing than can somebody tell me
dont let me be in the dark foreve
ri end this sorrow letter by saying goodbye...

she give me this poem,during dat time i probably dunno how to react coz it has minimum impact on me...but now after 7 yrs later reading the poem back i guess its all making sense....it somehow hit a raw nerve n shoot something i avoid in my heart...anyway, i ever as my classmate(now in ITE) wether they rather have one bestfriend with no other friend or many2 friends with no bestfriends.....n the majority answer is having many2 friends with no besties.....its not suprising....


aniway on heavier note....my exam is...errm...in 10 days time..counting down....my mind is not helping me....it cant seems to digest alot of information..haiyooh....the first GPA is important...it make up the whole of 2yrs GPA in my ite life...i mean teacher will gauge your maximum potential tru 1st GPA....haiyer.....


on a lighter note,i having cold war with Hafiz aka 'the scandal'...alamaak...i dunno arh this guy eh.... so greedy!i msg2 him arh otw back from skul...it suppose to be a relax funny flirtatious messages...but then he come up with a stOOOpid qn,
magicstick:if im attach will you still be my scandal?
me:y..r u att?
magicstick:no.i just ask n u get paranoid.
me:im not paranoid...im just asking...did u already have sumone in mind?magicstick:no lah.u havent answer my qn.
me:nope, not anymore...i dun wanna hurt another gal
magicstick:WTF.u suppose to be my puck buddy.u wont hurt anyone.'
me:once ur att u can puck ur gal...i saw my friend suffer coz her bf flirt around and i dun want to be sumone who wreck a relationship...besides,u will have no time for me after tat....

after tat he went quiet...tats when i decide to stop contacting him.he msg me on thursday n i didt reply..haiyer...dunno lah... between him n me is more then friend or bestfriend but we are not in a relationship,coz we agree tat we dun lyk commitment... but we do get jelous when we do "something notty" with someone else...we noe we care abt each other n we meant alot to each other...i can talk abt boyfriends n he can talk abt hot girls to me and laugh abt anything under the sun.talk abt the most serious stuff like studies,we talk our childhood and toys we play,talk absolutely crap and explicit stuff tat censored to the parents ears and we dun care abt each other's flaws...we like each other but our ego will try to keep away those feeling away... his my besties-lover-puck buddy-scandal....name me tat kinda relationship.hehe.

cheers* to the Gela're Gang.tehehe.

tke care peoplespread the love!

*mumbles*
i can ride my bike with no handle bars...no handle bars..no handle bars...
i can see you face on the telephone...on the telephone...on the telephone...
i can lead a nation with a microphone..a microphone...a microphone...
i can split the atoms of a molecule...of a molecule...of a molecule...
i can hit a target tru a telescope...tru a telescope...tru a telescope...
*humming*

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