friday night...im out with ma girls to the SKA gig...and its COMIC STRIP! WHOOHOO! i love the vocalist voice sia...she can tarik really well....aww~

Tears - Comic Strip


reach home...ring fie say that im at home....she came over to my crib...waited (mcm buah tak jatoh) for me to be ready...then went to city hall and met the wonderfully cute Ms Atinton..hehe..at starbucks..then when to McD to have their lunch and lepak for a while watch some 'interesting' video.....(gelimat...hahaha!)














then they get to watch zai video...hahaha...then tersermpak with DJ(Mr.Borries hehe)...he hug me and turn over tu fie and atin and say 'she my sundal partner!'..hahaha lolz i miss my sundal tym with aynn and dj,my sundal club...but now everything change....cannot be sundal lar..hahaha...i even gave up on the harmless flirting lah dj....hehe...but keep on the sundal sprite ek dj maybe we'll mit up and solve the crappy thing happen...haha then dayah came..telling us the gud new that she will be working at hougang @ some nursing centre(tercampak kape kau yah..haha)..then sit at the seating area at the esplanade stage....COMIC STRIP already doing there sound check...then we do some camwhoring as usual...
then there's a art display right after the gig...around the stage area there clown sleepi ng all over the floor but didt take their pic (alarrr... :[ )

the comic strip was a disapointment for this gig....the song was good...and the performance was not bad...but i dun see many people getting up to skank...so all of us didt skank too..hated the new stage coz people cannot get up to dance ...cibai lah...fie and i got bored and almost falling a sleep....
then we lepak awhile take someore pic and head home....

its so bored that people are playing cards at the gig.

laughs,future talks,yesturday stories and heartaches is shared...i love u girls =)

i woke up feeling like ive been hit by a truck....i swear...i feeling like im getting sick or something...like every thursday i skip morning lesson..so i woke up ard 8 and get my self ready for school..decided i MUST go for Project management coz we only have one lesson with Mr.Goddfrey...but cudt really pay attention coz my eyes were like half closing ,watery and keep feeling like throwing up...which i did middle of the lesson...

felt like shit...i went home straight...wanna go crash on my bed but i can seems to get some sleep.

yesturday was great...i meet baby then we went to watch Night at the meseum @ cathay cineleisure...then the show start at 4.45 so we ate at burger king..its was the place where bby and i first had our meal together..we disturb each other abt how shy we are when we first ate together face to face..paisey..hahaha..sweet memory...by the time it end it ws 6.45 and jason and errm..(who the other guy's name?) already reach the place we suppose to meet....hahaha...when to a different shisha place...with really nice ambience...with aircon.thank god.and really dim lights.and were are watching underworld evalution.the thing abt this place is its has a nice cusion and its comfortable but the shisha SUCK like hell coz i was like sucking air...i and bby had apple and we can hardly taste anything but jason and...errm..(wats the other guys name eh?)

was apple and strawberry(eh?) taste better...

sitting and listen to them talking abt their NS,ITE and abt jackass plans that they have in mind...LOL with the guys...company was excellent that i dun really mind the sucky shisha..heh.

then when we abt to leave Aidil came...one of their friend that mata tembel..hahaha...but cute...

arrive home ard 10.30pm mom nagged..i was grounded..and i end up having a fight with bby.

haiyooh.

fake passport indeed.

i wonder what happen next.haha

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASON PEREIRA

later i meeting boyfie...to chill with him first then meet the birthday boy for sheesha....jason is as old as my bro,24...but i guess he has more common sense then my own bro...-.- ouh wat the hell....

aniways,jason i really wish that..i mean REALLY wish ur happy on ur birthday.

aku nak kasi stripper as present kau tak kesampaian..hahaha

so i sent u my prayers as a gift that u will always get wat u wish for.

ok enuf of the crappy shit.hahaha.

Creative Labs 2 GB Zen Mozaic MP3 Player -

black for him pink for me...
he bought me the mp3 coz when he ask wat did i listen to when i go to school i say nutting just staring at blank spaces...coz my walkman hp rosak....so his like 'kte beli mp3 jom....then my lame nye mp3 i bagi ika' hahaha sardine jer....dun really like pink...but never mind lah he like me to have the pink color... yay! now i have music blasting in my ear every morning...and i need new songs...sheeh -.-'' song this these day easy get je lak....
ouh ya...before that....we go eat seafood at sinar..yummy! =) i love clams so he ordered a big plate for me to finish lolz silly boyfie....but he like 'kupang' and not getting any hahahaha....never mind if ur not dirty minded and didt get the joke..lolz...

after that when straight home...he kinda get tired and stuff..hehe...






ps:i just got criticized that i only love my boyfie coz he buy me stuff and bring me to eat. u guys never know the ups and downs boyfie go tru in our relationship...so u dun have the right to say anything...we work hard to make this relationship work...u dun have the right to say i hv the easy way....and yesh im VERY HAPPY.screw u....tankiu very much for those whop help to make things work, the listening ear,the problem solver and the adviser who always around to help every hurdle that boyfie and i come across..

CALLING ALL NYETIANZ:


Yayah*Gibbonnz







Faddy*Gorriz











Dee*Chipanz











Fie*rangtanz






hey ya girlsfriends!
The gathering that have been
requested have been plan.


date:
5th July
wait till the working people
get their pay. hehe.

dress code:

since we are gonna remake
our so called photograph
that look like a Band album cover.
Fie and I have decide
the dress code will be.....
Indie(Brigh awkward colors),
punk,metal and
rock(black) Bands.
hahaha.sounds like construction site.(metal&rock)LoLz

Plan: roughly...

1st, we go 'melalak'....
karaoke session@Cash Box Orchard.

then,
we go makan @ Bugis
Swensens or Seoul Garden
(or whatever u girls suggest)

after that,
We CamWhore@baghdad streets

and ends the day there.

for those who actually 'asap'..
we will go for shisha session
in the evening@Haji Lane.
*tak sume kene gi shisha coz kte respect Fad
...dier kai tudong orite?
OR

We could go to botanical garden
and near to it is, dempsy hill.
so maybe we cud take photograph
and makan at Botanical graden
after the 'melalak session' coz
botanic and orchard is not that far.
after that we can go explore at dempsey hill.
*yg tu boleh save adult fare..hehehe.

time: maybe
more convenient for
Fad. lepas zohor.




Please girls,
we only meet up once in the blue moon.
so dun create problems.
start saving for the gathering.
i dun want like last time...
last min complaint not enuf money or budget ..
or watever not.
and please sacrifice ur adult fare to go to places.
-.-'' sheeh. since its still long before we meet up.
if u have any other suggestions
pls do tell me at the tagboard.
i love u girls! yay! :)

*yawnzz* i just woke up....the bleed have gone...but the headache have been come n go ...i felt tired easily...when i sleep i can barely wake up... im not like this last time dun wats wrong lah...(suddenly the giddy spells came)i never the 'kaki tido' type i can hardly get to sleep at night..but now i sleep most of the afternoons when i get back from school...baby was oso shock coz im not like dat...

yesturday:
im getting pissy...the thing abt me is im not afraid of being poor or poverty...as long as ur hard working i can live with u...and i am SO lucky i have boyfie..coz he was damn hardworking..but to the extent of sacifice my time wirth him during the weekends? sheeh.it was like pushing my mental state to the edge of the cliff coz i miss him like crazy and was looking forward for our date.tym and tym again ive been remainding him that he only have tym to meet me only during the weekend...but his farking bos have to make him work on both weekend..chibai sial...as if my boyfie have no life... so he got pissed off to when he called me around 2plus to tell me that sun he also have to work...i have to keep my sadness aside and 'pujok' boyfie that its ok i shall met him on the next weekday...

then ard 5plus he called and say 'im otw to ur place in taxi...we're going takashimayah'
kelam kabot giler babi...i change and dressed up...sui sui he called again and say the taxi already arrived...get in taxi....(eww baby smelly2 ...hahaha) can see he was so tired...so i didt disturb him(ye ke...hehehe)...i hug him(busok pon busok lah..hahaha)kiss him and let him rest tru the journey....reach the place,follow boyfie shopping..he bought some shirts and then we go makan... as usual we eat his fav place,seoul garden..i eat at seoul garden more often then i eat at mcD nowadays i tell ya...then wanted to watch movie but seats were all taken up...try to get the movie chamber so we can get tym alone but its was filled up too...chibai..was so pissed of...so boyfie drag me into the taxi and when to lot one....but the damn cinema at lot 1 was packed too...atlast we took the taxi to bp plaza and we bought a few things(he even wanted to buy lingerie for me -.-'' silly boyfie) then we chill at my house staircase for a few mins and then we when we go separate ways...
'he said i was dirfting away,he said i changed,he said he wasnt sure where is his place in my life, he said i dun care about him....but he shud really know that he matter to me more than anything...his the guy that i ever love till i cud overcome the tot of LutHafiz...his the guy that im prepared to go down the aisle with anytime soon...his the guy that i cud see myself settle down in our happy home 10 years down the road with our 'jr zaini and jr tiara'...his the guy that i wanna grow old and go tru quiet retirement with...his the guy who free me sexually mentally physically emotinally...his the guys who can make my friends and lil sis envy of me(coz im a very happy relationship)......and god, he shud really know.'

today: i want to apologise profusely to Siti Nur Ain...for not reply ur msg last night and tis morning and even Buih u abt the teambuilding challenge @ macperson secondary...i tak boleh bagon sorry...wasnt my intention..i noe u wanted to go badly and get the 'prize',trip to shanghai ..i knew i blew it im sorry :(
today sit at home finish up my tutorial for wireless comm net and do some revision for comp system(besok test).. get ready for school...makne nye: iron my uniform...and..errm...ouh ya pack bag...so ya...boyfie give money for school coz he scared i wont eat at school(alahaiz sweet nye)... later at night wanna watch boys over flowers at channel u...it will be my 3rd time watching a tv serise that have the same story line...hahaha but i loike the story line and the guys in the story...SUPERcute.aww~ korean guys. and yay! wed skip skool..so long suckerssssssssss....muhahaha! (ok aku evil.) im out with my fav guys. =))


im missing:

Nur Qurratu Aynn & Dean James Borries.
i still remember when i got tru that really hard heartbreak over lut...u guys were there listen to my pathetic sob(meraung siakz)..that tym it was at tamp starbucks when i find out from his friendster that he is already with his current gf. i wanted to leave and i ask u guys to leave me alone but u guys stay by my side...i remeber exctly wat Dj said 'u really tot we gonna leave u right...no we wont..' ... it really made me feel better. i rember i go tru deep shits with aynn like caught smoking in the toilet and getting upset over several things ...she like a lil sis that need protection...untill lately cirumstances make us grew apart...it felt bad..really bad...i still remeber aynn that we promise 'mummy' @ jammiyah that we will never let the friendship break. she hug us and wanted ur to be close friends forever.

*close ears*


#mummbles#

aku ni asik makan je...asik makan je aku ...

mcm kelakar...

klu nak makan...asik cari makanan..

klu mls nak makan...perot lapar pon uat bodo ish..

klu mcm skg @ 3.40pm

aku rase nak makan lagi..

padahal tady lepak ngn "lil2 bro" aku suma dah makan tao..

errm..ehh...

aku dah makn ke?

dah ke belom eh?

(remebers ain) AIN AKU MAKAN TAK TADY?

i forgot sey..

chibai kan kan kan...

but i noe i had my 'batang' just now..

ciggie bodo bukan yg mcm korg pikir..

balik nak makan doublecheese...

tapi kene pk yg next week peh duit skul..

barbie kan aku peh duit dah running low lagi..

fark.. dah start tabiat burok aku....

ish..boros...

looking forward for the 'pink-form'(winks @ain)

nari tuesday...GELARE~ half price sia..

nak ice cream ngn waffle..

there u go again sara..

makanan lagi.. -.-''

nak jumpe zaini arh...

padahal baru jumpe on sun..

sial kan! baru kate ngn dier aku tak boleh nmpk kucing hitam

nnt something bad happen..

and klu aku happy for that day the next day mesti ade bende jadi uat ku nangis..

barbie sekali betol..

i told u so zaini..

haiyar...now his like worried

he calls me up over small lil things

just to noe im ok..

yelah mmg lah sweet tapi aku pakai pp8...

lagi2 pasal pp8...pasal pp8 lagi2...

bosan...

aku nak amik student plan...korg rase bagos tak?

sape mau bayar..

hehe..bedek arh actually zaini kate nak bayar half...

ok jugak baru $10pls..plus..

aniways nak jumpe zaini nak hug..

coz i feel crappy today...

aleh2 ade tis feeling yg semua org nak tinggalkan aku

takot giler babi,....

btw kan..

zaini kate 'i got a fear of being alone i dun want anyone to leaver me...be it u(aku lah),my family and Jason..suma takmo tinggalkan i'

:( sedih dgr mcm gitu...takde sape nak tglkan dier (tol tak jason?)

aku tgh kat class COMPUTER SYSTEM

tapi tak uat keje i dun get a thing

otak aku selalu jln2 kat keliling class room

i always have this sharp pain on in my brain..

especially when im about to sleep..

kadang2 i have to cover my mouth to refrain from shouting..

and i get the headache like anytime of the day..

sakit tau...barbie...

astagak...jgn maki tiara..

ok dah mls nak bebual sendiri...

im scared.

when recall today.

tru out on the way to school my eyes were teary.

im scared.

i dunno wats wrong with me.

i woke up covered in blood.

i freak out.totally.

i ran to my bathroom and get myself clean.

there's something wrong with me.

i dun want anyone to noe.especially mom.

i hate when mom start to accuse and stuff.so mite as well she didt know.

the last person i want to tell is boyfiee.

but i did anyway.

im just lost with wats going on with me.

i dun wanna go doc.

coz im scared.

boyfie scolded me when i told him.

coz we already know something was not right

with me from the begining.

this have been going on almost a month already

he say his bringing me for a check up.

but i got frustrated.

his being to pushy.

he wont give me space for me to think wat i wanna do next.

he say his worried for me.

fuck.as if his alone.

and for goodnes sake.

someone pls tell him that threathen of commiting suicide dosent help a thing.

atleast dosent help me when my mind is so mixed up.

where does all this pails of blood came from. im scared.

im on the verge of letting boyfie go.

i had it with him threatening me.

really.

i dun need the..

"i sumpah atok i yg dah meningal that

klu u tak go doc i tak nak makan.."

its bad enuf i have this load on my head and now i have to think abt him too.

im so fark'd.

seriously.

if u guys wondering,

i still love him very much.

i already treat him just like my husband.

i dun want to give up on this relationship

how bad i want the relationship to work?

its as bad as if we were to break up,

i will go for marriage councelling drag him along

hehe.crazy me.

i guess his just perfect for a very DEGIL person like me.

coz his VERY VERY persuasive

yesh thats wat 'kitty' call me.degil.

so 'kitty' say his gonna drag me

to clinic for his next pay

GREAT.

but im letting him do so

maybe i shud stop calling boyfie kitty.

hahaha.

monster.inc's fault

coz as far as im concern his taking care of me now.

he wouldt want any of my hair to fall

wat more to loss alot of blood.

i never want to make him worried sick.

i swear.

hope everything goes ok.

gtg now.

hope tomorrow morning will be better.

insya'allah.

ps:ya allah,pls forgive all

my big and small sins

take care of my parents for me.

pls make me better pysically

and behaviour wise.

:'(

had fun with my ladies yesturday ...we go airport to take good quality pic *ahem2* all thankz to fiefarq...its wasnt plan its just last min thingy....but we had a blast! firstly go to popeye to have our lunch cum dinner..then when to T3 and T1 viewing mall for the picture taking...its been so long since i meet them i had a great laugh with them....hehehe thankiu fad and fie... good luck on ur jobs ok..it was a perfect outing and planing it to do with the rest of the Nyetz! yay!